neuroticboyfriend:
i promise you’ll feel better once you start to let go of the idea of being a good/bad person and just focus on doing your best to put more good into this world than bad.
if there’s anything you’ve learned from my blog(s), it’s that we can’t put humans into neat little boxes. you’re going to do marvelous things and save lives without even realizing it. you’re going to fuck up terribly and leave a scar on someone, maybe forever. because we all do. you are not terribly or wonderfully unique in regards to that - but you are terribly and wonderfully unique in how irreplaceable your impact on someone else is.
for better or worse, no one else has the exact same knowledge, feelings, thoughts, worldview, support, experiences, and memories as you. you are the only person on this earth capable of wielding all that you are and directing it into creating a better world for all of us. all you can reasonably do is be aware of how your thoughts guide your actions, and what you choose to do. and that is far from the same thing as being utterly consumed by it.
and don’t get too deep about it. you’d be surprised at how far just being authentically you and taking care of yourself can go. sometimes all you need to do for someone else is exist.