Hi Sue I understand what you mean about being in a grey cloud Annette passed away 4 November had my fake smile suck on for so long my parents thought I had got over things already they seemed shocked when they came to visit and my daughter told them I had been in bed for 2 days crying my eyes out .We have all pulled through Christmas but to be honest its new year I am dreading I hated it when Annette was alive, always made me remember sad times (of the two babies we lost but that's not for here) she was there to put a smile on my face and get me through. Your not ranting venting and letting things out will do you no harm you take care . Sending you love and all the strength you need for what ever gets thrown in your way
Wayne