I've been thinking about wls for quite a while. I was ALWAYS a skinny girl growing up and even after my kids were born. I could eat anything and everything and never gain an ounce. I ate healthy but could eat anything I wanted.
Then I hit 40 and look out, here comes the weight. I attribute some of it to medication, some of it to genetics, and some of it to slider carbs - chips, fries, pasta, - you know what I am talking about. I tried them all, weight watchers, atkins, south beach and working with a personal trainer along with clean eating. Nothing worked and I hated dieting. My personal trainer told me, "you might be one of those people who just can't lose weight." Talk about de-motivating!! Even tried hypnosis.
I am pretty tall and carry all my weight around my middle. My arms and legs are pretty slim so with my height and certain clothing I dont necessarily look like I am 100 lbs overweight, with a 35 bmi with co-morbidities. So I get comments about not needing to lose that much weight and isnt wls an extreme solution?
As I got older, I started getting co-morbidities. Sleep apnea, pre-diabetes, metabollic syndrome, high cholesterol and triglycerides, and life got more challenging. I started getting depressed and was prescribed anti-depressants which caused weight gain. Plus all of my paternal aunts were "heavy" but my parents were slim and so were their other siblings. So I'm a heavier person among mostly thin family who dont gain weight.
So I started researching wls. First I had to learn about the types of wls. Ive always been a person who does alot of research and first thing I found out was how expensive it was and that insurance wasnt going to cover it. After months of research, I decided on OCC and Dr Ortiz.
I talked to my hubby, my mom and my brothers, none of them want me to do it, especially in Mexico but they all agreed to be supportive. I paid my deposit and I am now scheduled for Sept 26.
I MADE THE BIG DECISION!!!
Now, I am scared to death. What if this doesnt work either? What if I cant do the preop? I had Barrett's years ago and it went away, what if it comes back? What if I hate the strictness? If I make a mistake at a meal and suffer the unpleasantness associated with over eating or eating the wrong foods, will it help or hurt? What if I get attacks of the munchies and eat those awful carbs?
Yup, buyers remorse and I go back and forth about my decision, am I doing the right thing?
BTW, my idea of exercise is turning the pages of a book, so I am now starting to get an exercise routine in place - walking or bike riding or jumping rope or water aerobics or yoga? Ive tried them all and I dont enjoy any of them. What the heck?
So, I am committed to making this work but it scares me to think that I might not be able to do this. AARGH! Am I nuts?