I’ll be honest, when I got pregnant with The Love Nugget, I wasn’t 100% sure I wanted to be a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom). I enjoyed my job and after spending years in college I felt as if I would be wasting away my degree by staying home. However, I was commuting an hour to and from work and putting a crazy amount of miles on my car each year. It was draining, stressful, and definitely helped me make my decision to resign.
Those first few weeks at home while I awaited The Love Nuggets arrival (two weeks late), I began second guessing my decision. I was bored out of my mind and missed my students. Finally he
decided
was forced to make an appearance and my world was complete. Consumed by having a newborn and trying to find balance with our new life I forgot about my job I once loved.
Fast forward a few months to when we were settled into a routine and I started to feel that itch. As I shopped in Target for diapers and bibs I watched excited students pick out their school supplies getting ready to head back to school. I missed that excitement and anticipation of beginning a new year. I missed my colleagues and to a certain extent I missed the commute. Time alone for an hour (twice in one day) with no one screaming at me? Hell yeah!
I knew that if I didn’t do something I was going to become depressed which would effect my marriage and more concernedly my son. So I stepped out of my comfort zone. I began attending meet-ups, play dates, and joined Stroller Strides. I introduced myself to moms at the park, the library, and even on grocery shopping trips. Before I was not much of an outgoing person and to be honest I’m still not a big extrovert but I knew if I didn’t make some mom friends I was going to be in trouble.
Even with new mom friends, weekly baby and me classes, play dates and events, I still found myself bored with the day to day routine of life with a baby. As a friend most recently put it, “It’s like groundhog day everyday. Feed, change, play, nap, repeat.” Yes, it definitely felt like Groundhog Day most days.
However, as I reflected on her comment I realized how much I enjoyed that stage of his life even though at times it was very repetitive and daunting. Now that The Love Nugget is a little adult, I actually miss those Groundhog days.
That look of love as he gazed at me with content…
The days of messy eating…
The first time on a swing…
His first time feeling the crunch of fall leaves…
Watching him learn to explore new places…
Even his serious phase…
All those moments didn’t seem like much at the time as they weren’t those huge milestones you anticipate and remember most. However, now when I look back I realize how much I cherish the fact that I was able to enjoy them. Being a SAHM wasn’t always my top priority in life. I actually wasn’t sure I wanted kids up until I was almost 30. Now that I’m a full-time stay at home mom, I wouldn’t change it for the world! Yes, it might be routine at times. Sure sometimes I get bored and frustrated with doing the same thing over and over again. But the truth is, I would live Groundhog Day over and over again with this little man if I had to
QUESTIONS –
If you have kids, do you ever feel like your life is like Groundhogs Day?
No kids? Are you fearful of losing what you’ve worked for when you become a mom?
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