2015-11-18

We now have storms with names in the UK.  Abigail didn't bother us too much, but Barney ... he was wild.  And my brain is full of fog.

I do quite a taxing voluntary job.  The thing I find most difficult is that cases involving benefits, housing, money, debt etc. etc. really need to be wound up on the day.  I never was the sharpest knife in the cutlery draw when it comes to such things, but when it's getting late and I've still got loads to do I sometimes tend to think that PsA isn't helping.

So yesterday I did something I've not done before and stated the bald facts as I saw them: "my brain has stopped working.  I cannot do this.  I need to go home."

Got home okay despite Barney to find the house lit up by candles, a power cut.  Ate, conked out.  Woke up long enough to mention that it was weird I was so tired and my husband stated the bald facts as he saw them: "it's the disease."

It is the disease.  It's so long since I've had swelling or persistent pain, but I do now.  My rheumy found some of the swelling because I've got out of the habit of looking.  I am knackered.  I'm not used to flares or wotnot so I need to keep the faith that things will improve again.  For various reasons a change of meds is not on the cards at the moment so it's wait and see time.

I love storms but I hate fog.

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