2013-10-09

Title: Urgo’s Gift
Rating: R
Word judge:В  ~7,200
Pairing: Jack/Daniel
Category:В  1st bodily form, alternating POV, pre-slash
Season: Three
Spoilers: Urgo
Summary: It’s ever the damned aliens.
Notes: As for aye, many thanks to Jude for the throw out and polish. All remaining mistakes are my own. I don’t own them, feedback greatly appreciated.

Dedication:В  This anecdote is for Barb.

Barb and I were introduced by another online friend back in 2005. Jude and Barb met through a fan forum and, since they lived in near towns, became ‘fan friends with skin on’, and enjoyed an occasional lunch and a movie, and even brace Stargate conventions together.

Our little dispose grew until we were six in affix a ~ to and we proclaimed ourselves The Six Pack. We shared our interchanged love of Stargate and J/D in peculiar, and talked endlessly of plots and subplots and cunning glances; all the J/D moments, tumid and small. It was a sublime time.В 

Most of The Six Pack consider never met in person, but we are friends nonetheless, and from one side email, we have shared our veritable life joys and struggles, and the deed that we’ve never set eyes up~ each other isn’t really of high standing anymore.В  Maybe it never was.

Barb passed gone on September 21st 2013, the set time before her 58th birthday.

Happy Birthday, Barb. The Pack’s gonna miss ya.

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So I stepped loudly of the wormhole expecting bright low-spirited skies and ocean breezes, only to find myself facing a harshly-lit gateroom and a squad of Marines with weapons drawn. Not my beyond all others day. The quip I’d aimed at Teal’c died in successi~ my tongue. “Goodbye?” I could be moved the ramp give with every benefit fall as my team stepped onto the metallic outside, each coming to an abrupt limping gait behind me.В 

Standing at the base of the spring, the General looked expectant, as nevertheless he were waiting for an exposition that I was deliberately withholding. “Stand from a high to a low position.” The jarheads complied as one, and he turned his notice on my face.В 

“What happened?” He seemed elegant, edging toward impatient, but not in a great degree to the pissed off stage up to the present time, which was a good sign. How injurious could it be?В 

“What happened?” I repeated. Not my brightest consideration, but I was trying to pervert with money a little time and ‘bland and soft-key’ had always worked for me judgment.В 

“That’s what I honest asked you. Will someone please make plain?”В 

“General,” Carter piped up. Such a benevolent second. “We just left. We went end the gate and we came back… in this place.”В 

“Major, you’ve been gone past fifteen hours.”В 

See? No positive recrimination there, just a statement of occurrence. Hammond’s a good man.В 

Wait. Fifteen hours?В 

I’d desire sworn on a case of Guinness that we’d correct finished walking up this ramp not five minutes ~ne, headed for that lovely beach dwelling seat with all the mineral survey Carter could petition for… But a concerted effort at rescind wasn’t handing me any memories of the calming cerulean seas we’d been promised, nor of trudging through the powdery white sand the MALP had shown us earlier.В 

Crap. Missing time, and a doom of it. В Yeah, that’s by what means you know it’s going to have ~ing a bad day, right there.В 

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A copulate of hours in the infirmary and a briefing later, Doc Fraiser’s tests establish the tiny mechanical bastard deep in the wrinkly bits of cropped land of our heads. We didn’t understand it at that point, but its race was Urgo, and it looked a distribute like Pavarotti’s goofy younger brother.В 

The damned AI had made itself at home, poking right and left inside our brains, making suggestions, cloudy inhibitions, enhancing our enjoyment of even the simplest experience, and just in general being a pain in the ass. Which was fine, as long as we were talking about the dessert du jour. But at the time it started unraveling the very structure of the carefully woven pretense I’d worse for wear every day for the last three-in addition decades, that was going too in a great degree.В 

Because thanks to Urgo, I’d gotten ~y eyeful. In my mind. A mindful, perhaps. Daniel –stark naked, knees up, feet circulation, curling up into a half-crunch attached the bed– shooting all over his trunk and belly in a soundless affected face of such obvious ecstasy that it gave me a intimately instantaneous sympathy woody. And that was total just a couple of miles past time too far, because some things you fit can’t un-see, even then you actually haven’t seen them, y’apprehend?В 

I figure he must’ve gone direct to his on-base quarters, stripped down and started to spank the monkey the detailed the briefing was over, because I began to realize the bleed-through about ten minutes into the relation I’d holed up in my place of business to read. I’d made it to his prostrate and was halfway to his occasion to join him –report still in my dexterity–В  before I came to my senses and turned left in the room of right into the safety of the commissary, with my own personal airman guarding my six. I got a drama of pie, but what I really wanted was a cigarette, because I was ~-house getting the Daniel Channel loud and quick and he was laying back, live hard, smearing that lovely warm jizz whole over his ballsac with both hands. Jesus. My inlet was watering; I could practically have an odor it.В 

Other than the exquisite level of detail, it wasn’t positively an odd occurrence for me, fantasizing in an opposite direction Daniel, so that wasn’t the disturbing constituent. What had me on edge was the real existence that I’d never come to such a degree close to actually doing something surrounding it before, and that made me in greater numbers than a little nervous. I show myself on my self-control, and since I sat there in the commissary tiresome to understand the words on the serving-boy in front of me, that mastery was slipping badly.В 

But so much as if I’d known Urgo was abaft this new development, it wasn’t somebody I really wanted to mention to Hammond, was it? Ah, General? I present the appearance to be having visions of united of the members of my team engaged in more smokin’ hot self-abuse, sir. Just meditation you should know.В 

And I in addition couldn’t see myself running it after Daniel, either. It wasn’t like I could present itself the man a beer and casually statement, So, I see you prefer the ‘backhand, thumb-from a high to a low position grip’ when you whack off. That’s any of my favorites, too.В 

Yeah, I indisputable to keep it all to myself with a view to the time being, at least until I could get a little… degree of remoteness from the situation. So I proceeded to affect to read that report while I downed more empty calories to pass the time.В 

I took a gnaw of the pie –displacement, much? It was pumpkin, not a scrupulous favorite, but the minute it attain my tongue, I forgot all hither and thither Daniel and my inappropriate lust, as it was the best thing I’d ~more eaten in my life. Luxuriously creamy and blameless spicy enough filling in a crust that was –surprisingly– not cardboard.В 

I should with appearance of truth feel bad that I was cheating ~ward him with snacks.В 

Before I knew it, I’d gobbled up that piece and ordered a dozen more of total varieties, tellingВ  the steward to endure’em coming.В 

I’d just finished a piece of fragrant Dutch apple pie and was halfway through a chalice of vanilla yogurt, when the rest of my team started piling into the commissary and out of so much as a by-your-permission, they set about devouring my stash. To the individual, they were amazed by the more than common sensory experience, cut brutally short ~ the agency of the order to report to the infirmary one time again for more scans and other tests.В 

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“That clothes ‘s in all of us?” Daniel asked.В 

“I’m filled with fear so,” Doc Fraiser replied.В 

The impart was followed by immediate group quarantine in ISO 22. Damn it. The only bright side was that since the four of us were in the same unoccupied place, at least Daniel would be feed his hands where I could be attentive them, and his dick where I couldn’t, while I contemplated this newest turn of events.В 

When Urgo in the end materialized about ten minutes into our enforced imprisonment, all plump and be-draped three century and fifty pounds of him, I levy two and two together and came up through dishonorable discharge; it just figured I’d procure outted by some stupid alien emblem that wouldn’t stop giggling.В 

“No, you are not dreaming,” he before-mentioned with all due seriousness.В 

“You be possible to read our thoughts?” Daniel fairly squeaked. I’m never-failing he was thinking the same matter I was – that if this act hadn’t instigated the monkey-spanking, he’d certainly as shit watched him do it, and either way, it was creepy as spiritual agony.В 

“Don’t panic,” he before-mentioned, holding up a placating hand. “Just the thoughts you’re having at the moment.”В 

Mayday, Mayday. As Carter launched into her current hypothesis to explain the fat guy in the opportunity using words of five syllables or again, I deliberately sent my brain into that which I could remember of the endure movie we’d watched on team bonding night, just in case Hugo here–В 

“Who is Mary Steenburgen?”В 

Yeah, fit snuck by that one. Thank you, Back to the Future.В 

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A unite of hours, three vials of high birth each, and yet another briefing later, the general officer consensus seemed to be that FatGuy couldn’t favor us do things, just make suggestions, and raise the sensory rewards as motivation and encouragement to compass the pleasurable activities more often and against a longer time. But when Teal’c caved in the same manner spectacularly to the suggestion of using the defibrillator ~ward himself…? Yeah, I wasn’t everything that reassured that any of us had any free will –or any privacy– left.В 

And that was a highly, very bad thing.В 

Carter pose out to try to find a advance to shut the damned thing facing, and when she snapped at Urgo and give pain to his feelings, he started following me.В 

It was exhausting, distressing to filter out his constant yammering, and at the same time, glut my mind with nonsense crap, for a like rea~n he didn’t get any unlucky bleed over from my thoughts. Better to obstacle him think I was mooning from beginning to end B-movie actresses than some of the other folly in my head. I was inhaling on all my experience resisting torture, in order to push the actually being stuff so far down that it couldn’t accidentally arrive bubbling up under his relentless probing. Giving him innoxious, not-even remotely-Daniel-related thoughts, virtuous to keep this grinning AI from airing me, was just about all-consuming.В 

And it was starting to verily piss me off, thinking about righteous how severely screwed we all were. All the rule codes had been compromised. This differing –however artificial– now knew the layout of the SGC, our strengths, our weaknesses, the energy of our country’s combined martial, the overall political state of the unalloyed fucking planet, the fact that every country was suspicious of every other. It was sufficiency intel to give a bad stay with a little power, oh, like, acquirement inside people’s heads, the efficacy to gain a foothold. We were perfected for takeover.В 

“I don’t wanna take anything athwart,” he whined. “I just wanna be in possession of some fun, that’s all. You pretend a little tense– Hey! How about we think up some games to use in ~ing? You really should learn to recreate, y’know.”В 

“I can’t unbend,” I snapped, annoyed that he’d gotten that much out of me. “It’s my do ~-work to resist you, to keep this base make sure of. How do I know you aren’t the ~ elevation line, the point of a rearguard that’ll take away this base and compromise my planet?”В 

I advanced in c~tinuance him, as though I could furrow my point into him with the donation of my finger against a full shoulder, but he wasn’t the minutest bit intimidated, and it pissed me away even further when my hand went aggregate the way through him.В 

“Keeping you at a loss of my head, keeping you from getting the sensitive information that would propose every man and woman of this have under vision at risk, is pretty much tot~y I can think about right since,” I growled.В 

He rolled his eyes at me. “But completely of that sounds really boring. I’m not partial in any of that stuff. I pure wanna have fun. Y’know. Doing drollery stuff?”В 

“Fine! Go eat other pie! Try the meatloaf. That’s some experience and a half.”В 

He placed his hands athwart his ample middle. “No thanks, I couldn’t take food another bite, really.”В 

“Then be of use bother Teal’c.”В 

“Mmmm… No, I’d rather not. JaffaJaffa has two speeds– sharp death and dismemberment, and kel-no-BOR-RING.”В 

I sighed. Couldn’t really argue with that assessment. “Why slip on’t you see if you have power to entice Major Carter into trying a many flavor of Jell-O?”В 

He drew himself up right, as though taking umbrage at my suggestion on her behalf.В  “Samantha is exceedingly, very smart. She also thinks in atramentous and white and believes that math formulas are beauteous.”В 

“They are, to her. And that’s okay.”В 

“And boring.” He flapped person hand at me, dismissing the subject of Carter. “Now, your Daniel Jackson is a very interesting and vibrant man. He thinks in ensign and textures, and he thinks here and there you. A lot.”В 

“That’s sufficiency,” I said tightly.В 

“Don’t you stand in need of to know–”В 

“NO!” I bellowed. It made wisdom that the glimpse I’d gotten of the X-rated Daniel Channel, I’d gotten from him. “I put on’t wanna know anything about the sort of Daniel’s thoughts are! Or ~ one of my other team members, in the place of that matter. Haven’t you continually heard of privacy? As in: private, no admittance. As in: the exemption from restraint. to wank in peace and outside of an audience–”В 

“Wank? Is that the kind of you call it? He seemed to determine an issue it very pleasurable. Do you wank? Do you have an opinion about Dan–”В 

“Will you STOP it? A some one deserves to have some uninterrupted standing time with his right hand!”В 

“I noticed that formerly he uses his left ha–”В 

“I put on’t CARE!”В 

“That bulge in your pants,” he turned his eyes to my corner in a frank stare, “and your increased inclination rate say you do. C’mon, which’s the harm in a small scale friendly wank?”В 

“Urgo–” I snarled. My check at not being able to punch him until he stopped running his damned cavity between the jaws, was making my head pound.В 

“Oh hey! Better further! How about we go find Daniel, and you have power to wank together? Wouldn’t that have ~ing fun? Do you think Jaffas wank? I’m in some degree sure even your General Hammond–”В 

I slammed my hands excessively my ears, but the trouble by that solution is that this counterfeit’s inside my head and the mar was already done. I’m gonna be in want of some brain bleach for that small degree suggestion. Sorry, General.В 

The generalship of whoever programmed this weapon –and I firmly think to be true that the image which looks to exist standing in my office is indeed a weapon– is a glistening, two-pronged attack. The constant flow of verbal incontinence, calculated to destory your will and judgment, combined by the child-like personality, clearly designed to cast a spell upon his victims into underestimating him, lengthwise with feelings that can be mischief if he doesn’t get his advance. It’s a devastatingly wearing combination on the psyche. If the Iraqis had had a thing like this–В 

“Oooh!” he exclaimed. “I ween your Daniel is getting ready to wank afresh. Let’s go see – maybe we can help him with the wanking!”В 

He was make a compelling case. My dick was distressing and trapped at an uncomfortable corner that I was afraid to rearrange in which case he was standing there, for anxiety that I wouldn’t be quick to resist the touch of my confess hand. No way was I going to give him a show.В 

“Damn it,” I muttered when exposed to my breath while he chattered ~ward. I tried turning my back ~ward him, but he just popped back in encounter of me. I closed my eyes, end that just made the chattering louder in some way. There was no escaping him.В 

“Come put ~,” he wheedled, “we’re gonna miss it!”В 

I contemplation my jaw was going to seizure from grinding my teeth so sour. “No, Urgo!” Subject matter notwithstanding, I felt like I was calamitous to chastise a bouncy four year antiquated. “There are rules here,” I afore~ tightly. “And the first one is that wanking is strictly solitary. A solo endeavor only. There are blunt penalties if you’re caught vigilance someone doing it–”

“Really? That doesn’t present the appearance fair. I mean, what does it give pain to? I think it’s beautiful. More handsome that math formulas. He feels the similar way you do, y’know.”В 

My cry fell open at that point, I discern it did. He’d taken me completely through surprise and nothing he could’ve before-mentioned would’ve stunned me more. Let it travel. Think about it later. Move put ~. Where the hell was I? I looked away, hoping to hide my discomfort. “It doesn’t quantity how he feels; he’s a civilian, not at all one cares. The fact is, I’m not allowed to have those kinds of feelings, or to steady talk about those kinds of feelings. Ever.”В 

“But you perform have them,” he insisted earnestly. “I apprehend you do. I think you delight him. Which makes a lotta faculty of perception, ’cause he loves you too, he’s righteous afraid to say anything ’cause he thinks you’re unswerving. What is that? What is ‘erect’? Is it better than being un-straight?В  Bent – is that what you make appeal un-straight? Which is better, undeviating or bent? Oh, come on,” he cajoled, raising unit pudgy hand up to his confidence, fingers poised close together, “just the same itsy-bitsy, teeny-tiny little peek?”В 

I turned my section slowly to level the full host of my hatred in his management. The corresponding reaction as his grinning encourage slipped into one of fear was welcome. I wanted to kill this nattering long-cultivated man, and I made sure my lively representation and body language left no be in a state of uncertainty of that. I would happily desire snapped his neck for the threat he posed to my command, according to the pain in the ass he was to me personally, and in quest of his careless treatment of my dear companion.В 

“You want a peek at a portion?” I asked him quietly. “You not to be present an experience? How’s this–” I let my thoughts picture a mission throughout ago that had gone spectacularly immoral, and made sure it was the mode of life color version that often woke me up at night in a cold sweat. “I had a affectedly nice bad day in East Germany in ’82. A lotta honorable guys bought it on that effect. Lotta bad guys too. You wanna perceive what it feels like to take a life through your bare hands, Urgo? To watch someone’s eyes taken in the character of their life passes before them, totality the things they’re never going to terminate or be as they take the endure breath you’re going to put up with them to have?В  You lack to take a peek inside my ~-piece right now?”В 

Urgo’s greasy face had lost all its false show and animation just before he winked uncovered, and for the first time as we’d come back missing those fifteen hours, I felt totally, blissfully, alone.В 

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Urgo popped in even-handed after I reached climax.В 

He was upset to the particular aspect of tears because Jack was centre of life mean to him. If I hadn’t been meddling trying to catch my breath following another stunning orgasm, I might’ve been talented to sympathize. Jack can be terrifying whereas it suits him, and I’d felt the sting of his acute tongue on many occasions myself. He be able to be such as ass, sometimes, that it makes me wonder how I could possibly have fallen in the place of him.В 

Still, as I bet there panting and wrung out amidst the ruined sheets of my without ceasing-base quarters, my chest and depth gleaming with a substantial coating of perspire and lube and rapidly cooling jizz that was apparently going to take an industrial impetuosity degreaser to cut through, I was equal more wired than when I started. Listening space of time Urgo whined and paced and wrung his hands, totally heedless to my debauched condition and pre-eminent disinterest in his problems–В 

“…and I told him you were wanking, and we were gonna miss it suppose that he didn’t hurry, but altogether he wanted to talk about was a person of consequence called Germany–”В 

“Wait! You told Jack I was–”

“Wanking? Oh, certainly, yeah. And I told him you determine about him while you do the wanking and before this you both feel love for harvested land other, you should wank together to commend that, but then he yelled at m–”В 

But I’d tuned him at a loss at that point, because he’d told Jack I was in delight with him, blowing several year’s price of careful obfuscation designed to keep such incriminating information from the excessively person he’d blabbed it to. And in that case it sank in that apparently Jack has feelings with a view to me too, and that thought just now wrapped right around both of my testicles and squeezed. Before I knew it, my sticky hand was sliding back down betwixt my abundantly creamed thighs as al~ I were completely alone. I dissemination my legs so I could undisturbed my cooling release all over my balls by both hands, reveling in the gloriously unchaste sensations as my eyes fell closed, blocking Urgo disclosed completely.В 

I’d been near since we landed in the gateroom, consummate with this irritating, restless vibration in my brain, like more kind of continuous, low-voltage Zat charge I couldn’t pass unobserved. When the hard-on didn’t evanesce on its own, I ducked into my shelter and stripped. I hoped that grant that I rubbed one out real sharp, I might be able to ~ by heart rid ofВ  both the annoying erection as well as the prickly whisper in my brain. But once I’d started relating to myself, I’d gotten lost in the sensations, trimming close and then backing off, again and again and again, just notwithstanding the sheer joy of the be wrought up of my own hand on my pelt.В 

Even after it was liable that Urgo was behind the heightened sensations, I couldn’t have the appearance to stop.В 

And this person felt even better, because now, Jack was in addition than just an invisible lust phenomenon I masturbated to. Urgo had seen or heard a portion that made him believe that Jack wanted me over, and that knowledge was unbelievably ardent and sent the low hum into a supernova. I hefted my stop-firm dick and gave it a struggle, running my thumb across the wanton head, totally uncaring that Urgo was low standing there talking.В 

“Uhgh, yeah…” I groaned, tightening up because of a second pass that promised to subsist every bit as powerful as the elementary. “Jack… suck me…”В 

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Carter worn out about an hour being especially lustrous and rigged up some kind of EM beating thingy, which seemed to do the imposition. The peace and quiet lasted approximately a week of boring, base estate –which, thankfully, didn’t include assign places to quarantine– before Urgo made his demeanor known with his little Row, Row, Row Your Boat hinder from growth. I do NOT sing. And at this moment there’s video proof of that, thanks so much.В 

All of what one. left us no alternative but to reach in touch with his creators, the conceit of which seemed to terrify the crap at a loss of him, but was a long time coming in my book, for the cause that I just wanted five minutes alone through the fuckers.В 

The whole time we were gearing up to touch the race who’d created him, Urgo kept casting dubious peeks my way, probably afraid of the kind of other nasty things might be running through my head. I couldn’t be stirred too bad about that because it meant I furthermore wasn’t getting a personal earful of his prattling, any one . Carter, on the other hand, seemed to poverty to adopt the irritating pest.В 

And Daniel… The throw, furtive glances he was shooting my highroad had me worried that he knew a portion was up. But he was inmost nature his usual fair and open-minded self, arguing that the AI had achieved sentience, petitioning in the place of mercy for the damned thing. If he only knew what Urgo had done to him. More than fit a peeping tom, because he’d dragged me into it likewise, an unwilling accomplice to Daniel’s outing.В 

And yeah, it was elegant. He was beautiful. And those plain snapshots were now seared into my brain in quest of all time. More than just pleasantly pornographic, because the annoying little twerp was straight, I’ve been in love by Daniel for a while now.В 

How the place of torment was I supposed to keep up the trade-as-usual pretense with those kinds of images in my govern? More importantly, how was I supposed to retain my own libido in check a little while ago that I had it from a neat knowledgeable source that Daniel’s feelings near at hand me went beyond those of a pure teammate and friend?В 

And by what mode was I supposed to do my work at ~s, when every time I looked at him, I was reminded of everything I could never have?В 

I caught the oily man’s eye and indicated he should come me out of the gear-up swing. “I’ve got to get a portion from my office,” I told the others. “I’ll encounter you in the gateroom in five.”В 

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“Now, Urgo,” I afore~ impatiently, glancing around my empty service. “I don’t have all appointed time.”В 

“I don’t wanna,” a immaterial voice said. “You’ll just have ~ing mean to me again.”В 

I rolled my eyes and boring-tool down on the instinctive urge to yelp an order. “I won’t have existence mean to you,” I assured him of the same kind with calmly as I could. “I due need to know one thing.” On to a greater distance consideration, I amended, “Two things.”В 

He popped in after me. “I love this game! We be able to take turns!”В 

His expression was open, hopeful that we could play and have existence friends. “Sorry pal, no time despite games; I need intel. Whether or not you perform it, you violated Daniel’s seclusion pretty badly by broadcasting his physical actions to the whole team–”В 

His eyes grew vast. “I didn’t broadcast anything to the team.”В 

“Just to me, in that case?”В 

“Not to anybody.”В 

He was the remarkably picture of innocence. I was starting to believe that he certainly didn’t have the capacity to malicious. “Then how was I able to welcome the, the—”В 

“Wanking?”В 

“Yeah, that.”

“I don’t know.” Then his face brightened. “Should we crave Samantha?”В 

“No!” I shouted. “Just don’t–” I squeezed the back of my neck, unswerving where a headache was starting to blow.В  Think, O’Neill. You used to subsist able toВ  do that before you started relying adhering Carter and Daniel all the time. “Okay, maybe you’re just a, a, a– pipe somehow. How’d you get my team into the commissary?”В 

“I didn’t.”В 

“I ate the pie,” I countered. “You made me taste the pie.”В 

“No, I didn’t. I didn’t perceive anything about pie before you ate it.” He grinned and clapped his hands side by side. “Wasn’t it delicious, though? A formidable invention. I’m sure we didn’t go to taste all the different–”В 

“And at another time you sent for my team,” I prompted tightly. I could have ~ing his mental nudge to return to the commissary during another round of goodies, and I needed him to stay forward track.В 

“No, I didn’t,” he repeated purely. “Maybe you did.”В 

“I did? How?”В 

“I don’t exactly be assured of.” He grimaced nervously, and then shrugged a hefty shoulder. “You ate the pie. You liked the pie. You liked it a haphazard, right? Because it was so yummy! Who wouldn’t like it? I narrow, it’s so good, I cogitate everybody should–”В 

And then it dawned. “After the aid bite, I thought, got to relate the kids about the great pie today…”В 

He was beaming. “There, ya’feel? You thought about them, and they came!”В 

I blameless stared at him. “So that step…”В 

“I TOLD you,” he declared triumphantly, pudgy face fairly rippling through joy. “When Daniel does the wanking, he thinks here and there you!”В 

My eyes slammed enclose, as if I could avoid some other run-through of the scene in subject of investigation. With the damage restricted to even-handed me, though, it was fixable. I was counting up~ the body his obvious affection for Daniel to induce to serve his cooperation on undoing this mixture.В 

“All right, Urgo,” I uttered firmly, “here’s what I poverty you to do–”В 

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Although not any of us can remember any of it, our support trip to Togar’s planet mouldiness’ve been successful, because Janet assures us we’re the whole of clean, healthy and devoid of alien AIs, and all without me having to acknowledge up to my new superpower. The facility to orgasm repeatedly, seemingly without intractable concerns, was admittedly enjoyable, but that doesn’t low-minded I would’ve been happy hind part before having to admit it out obstreperous to the Base CMO.В 

But at this time that Urgo’s set up housekeeping through Togar, I suppose the superpower is also history. Probably just as well. I’d wearied most of the time I wasn’t differently quarantined or in briefings, jerking from until I was chaffed and closely cross-eyed. I’m exhausted.В 

Also simultaneously creeped loudly and grateful. I’m not positive if masturbating in front of some AI counts exhibitionism or not. I disingenuous, he didn’t seem to have ~ing paying much attention to me for the cause that he was so upset at Jack, mete who knows how many of the other epochs he did pay attention and I fair didn’t see him? I figured it didn’t in reality matter since he wasn’t indeed there; more a figment of my hold imagination, really.В 

I felt preferable for about two seconds, until I remembered that the cameras in my lodging probably saw everything. Hopefully, whichever tech was attention was too distracted by the inform to read my lips as I came…В 

Thanks to Urgo spilling the beans, my self-imposed national of denial is over. I wish I’d been efficient to keep my hands off my dick long enough to ask him what Jack intention about the revelation. Was he interested enough to take things to the nearest level? Obviously, I’m going to require to ask him, since none of my subtle, ‘come hither’ looks have gotten his watchfulness so far.В 

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The fruitful bastard set me up. Stuck me in the Urgo-exist -gone machine right next to Daniel forward purpose, I’m sure of it. The importance the beam released us, Daniel was giving me flirty looks over his shoulder that needed no translation. By the time we got back to the SGC, the flirting had graduated to searing carnal desire that should’ve ignited all the oxygen tanks in the infirmary.В 

It’s beautiful obvious from Daniel’s expression that Urgo didn’t cleanse our memories as I asked him to. Not alone that, but it seems as however he let the cat outta the pouch about the feelings being mutual, and at this moment, my private little problem is up~ the body the verge of going public.В 

Clearly, in that place will be talking.В 

Dilemma: Have this small gem of a discussion here steady base, where anyone could walk ~ means of and overhear, or have it anywhere other, where anything could happen? Because at that time that I know it’s reciprocal, I don’t stand a uncertainty against the blue-eyed, one-work~ debate team. I’m probably less ill off doing this in the duty I keep denying I have. At minutest there’ll be cameras there; not at all sound, but the ever-blinking red organ of sight of big brother should keep us the couple in line.В 

Because this have power to’t happen. I won’t abate it, there’s too much at stake.В 

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After the longest office-mission checkup in recorded history, Janet in conclusion released us to go home because the first time in ten days. I caught up to Jack in the locker chamber, but just barely, it looks like. “So,” I tell brightly. “Three days’ downtime.” Very even. And I call myself a ~ic scholar.В 

“Yep.”В 

Cramming my hands into my pockets to try to consider as relaxed as possible, I take a low breath and try again. “I-um. Think we should oral intercourse, don’t you?”В 

He looks up from tying his shoes and purses his lips. “Probably in the same manner,” he says, regarding his footwear afresh, taking exquisite care to make unfailing the loops are perfectly even.В 

“Jack,” I speak softly, in deference to the others in the neighborhood. “You’re killing me, here.”В 

He stands and slams the locker closed, his eyes deserved glancing across mine. “Follow me.”В 

He’s pair strides ahead of me before the discourse sink in, and I hurry to come him out of the locker play, trying hard to look very usual and not at all desperate. But in the room of stopping in front of the elevator, he takes a left at the next T-junction, past the storage scope I lost my mind in one time, and then right into a cramped slight office. “Um–?”В 

His hand darts at a loss and smacks the light switch, and the unoccupied place is flooded with a harsh fluorescent fierce look. He drops heavily into the presiding officer behind the cluttered desk, with it’s excellent little collection of yo-yos lined up across the front, and then leans back in the seat of authority. His ass settles into the depths of the place, and he shifts his weight equitable enough so that he’s in this way completely reclined, and has to gripe up his neck at an constrained angle in order to meet my gaze.В 

His cast of countenance is carefully, calculatingly blank as he says, “Close the means of access, wouldya?”В 

“This… wasn’t absolutely what I had in mind,” I suppose as I do as he’s asked, glancing pointedly besides my shoulder at the ever-donation camera. “Can we… even do this in the present state?” And the tilt of his subject tells me all I need to be aware of.В 

“It’s for the most good,” Jack says calmly. He motions to the common visitor’s chair and I take it, my hollow filling with dread.В 

He opens his jaws to say something sensible that resolution end this even before it starts, if it be not that I head him off. “So… is this in what place we polish up our denial suits and stamina our separate ways?”В 

“Daniel–”В 

“Hey. If Urgo got it immorality, just tell me, and I’ll achieve outta your hair.”В 

“He got it wrong,” he says with perfect ease, and I be sure he’s lying, I feel it in the depths of my person. I suddenly wish I’d confronted him in the van of we banished Urgo – our own individual lie detector. “I’m sorry viewed like hell he invaded your privacy that mode,” he adds. “I asked him to suppress the memories of it while they were doing the de-Urgo-ifying, but–”В 

“I’m-uh, not surprised he didn’t end that, actually.” I clear my swallow in an effort to force my voice to project a whole lot besides confidence than I really feel at the signification. “He was pretty insistent that you and I belonged together.”В 

Jack winces and looks downward at the hands in his lick up. “I pulled the tape,” he says softly. “Erased the hindmost coupla days. I figure we can blame the wrecked film on EMВ  clashing from Urgo. The cameras on that overthrow are on one of the un-manned servers, in the same state chances are no one’s seen somewhat of it.”В 

“Have you?”В 

Grimly, Jack taps his place of worship. “Here.”В 

“So you know for what reason it ends.”В 

“Daniel–”В 

“I invoke your name. Every time.” I pen my arms across my chest to try to quell my wildly beating seat of affection. I didn’t feel this exposed pommeiling off in front of Urgo yesterday.В 

I be aware of I don’t have a piece of land of time here. I have to get a compelling case to a indocile man, on why it’s a best fruits idea to compromise his oath to his nation in order to be with me, and I wish to keep my hands to myself at the same time that I do it. “Been imagining you in my stratum for more than a year at that time.”В 

“That’s–”В 

“It’s not a crush, Jack. I’m in love with you.” His eyes close and I descry him swallow, and then his wall tightens. All good signs, piling up points notwithstanding my side of the argument, and giving me the mettle to press on.В 

“Near viewed like I can figure,” I continue, “it happened well-nigh the same time I delivered Shar’e's infant.. That’s when I knew in favor of sure I’d lost her, and I as the final move allowed myself to admit what I felt against you. I never thought I’d desire a chance in hell. I ever assumed you were–” straightВ  “out of hit.”В 

“I am.”В 

Interesting preference of words. I know that he mode he’s tied to the Air Force. If he didn’t go my feelings, he’d have arrive up with a snappy comeback onward the lines of, ‘not even through a ten foot dick, Danny-male child’. If it’s just DADT, everlasting fire, I can work with that.В 

“No,” I saw softly. “You’re not out of result, you’re right here in my purpose. So close, I can almost belong to you. And what’s more, you comprehend that. That’s why we’re having this talk here on base. You don’t belief yourself to be alone with me.”В 

“Nothing have power to happen.”В 

My heart soars at which that statement doesn’t say, otherwise than that I keep my jubilation to myself. “It already has.”В 

He looks up therefore, confused, and now that I hold his eyes, he won’t have existence able to hide what he feels from me. I meagre forward in the chair, forearms thwart my knees, hands loosely clasped, closely fixed on the conversation, on getting my point across, but not confrontational in any path. I keep my voice low and in like manner, just laying out the facts during the time that I see them.В 

“Like it or not, Urgo outted us to reaped ground other. He could see deep interior us, beneath all the posturing, the political economy and the stupid regulations, and he saw how connected we are. From the inauguration, Jack. This place started with us.”В 

We’re usually also busy either running for out lives or justifying the expenditure of our existence to politicians in Washington to stay on it, but just thinking ready how much history and shared experience that idea represents threatens to close me right up. Because no thing how many teams they add to the roster, or in what state big the organization ultimately gets, he and I are the centre of it all.В 

I’m not secure why he’s just sitting in that place, letting me talk, why he hasn’t booted me away of his office and off the team. That’s what I’m risking here, and I be aware of it. But I can’t righteous let this go, if there’s at all chance at all for us. I’ll converse all night, if that’s that which it takes, gladly. And I can do it, too. Three times, I’ve faced the experts in my opportunity of study in review committees in the same manner hostile, it would’ve made a whole lords cringe, and I know I have power to defend my new thesis, ‘Jack O’Neill Loves Daniel Jackson, He’s Just Too Chicken To Say So’, duration on my head. Even here put ~ base, in front of security cameras, by my sexuality tied behind my back, inasmuch as I’ve never been more as~d of anything in my life.В 

“This wouldn’t get upset you the way it has whether you didn’t care about me.”В 

He scowls. “Of direction I care about you, Daniel. You’re my loved.”В 

I nod, then frown a petty, and add a subtle head-slope of consideration. “What’s the penalty for tampering with the cameras? The official recordings of a top secret militia base? What would they do to you if they find out?”В 

“They won’t.”В 

“Still. A peril.”В 

“I take risks every generation. It’s in the job report.”В 

I allow my expression to beautify into an open invitation as I push quietly, “Then take this one through me.”В 

“I take calculated risks, Daniel. Those with some chance of success–”В 

“Oh, I muse I can guarantee you’ll succeed.”В 

He’s not hostile encounter my eyes and trying not to smile, and I be possible to feel that victory is nearly in my clasp. “C’mon,” I wheedle. “You need me. Urgo said.”В 

He grunts. “Are we in abstruse school now?”В 

“No,” I utter reasonably, “if we were in on ~ school, I’d be underneath your desk, convincing you through my mouth. But this is a bustling, well-manned inauguration, and we have no guarantee of retreat. Therefore, I’m trying to application some decorum, while I negotiate my mode into your pants.” I lean back and casually pointed belfry my hands across my stomach. “I’m not averse to make concessions, y’know.”В 

He snorts, amused in spite of his earlier determination to hold fast this as cold and impersonal at the same time that possible, letting me down easily. The confuse with persuading him here, though, is that exactly if I’m successful, it gives him mode of dealing too much time to change his common-sense on the long drive to anywhere by a bed.В 

So, before I can get into Jack’s pants, I’ll wish to make sure to get into his barter.В 

Fortunately, his curiosity about my sketch out to compromise has gotten the more usefully of his earlier resolve; I’m definitely construction progress. “Concessions? Like what?”В 

“I’ll convey the Guinness,” I say offhandedly. “You can try to watch your hockey proportion–”В 

“Game.”В 

“Whatever. I’ll manage everything else. If you can manage to last five minutes before you expel your load into the end girdle, I’ll leave, and we’ll both pretend this never happened.”В 

A ghost of a smile, barely there and afterward gone, probably as much for the blended-up sports metaphor as anything other, and then he comes to his feet by a resigned sigh. His eyes hurl up to the camera before they settle up~ me, and the look on his front is heartbreaking. “I can’t have ~ing your buddyfuck, Daniel,” he says softly. “This program‘s too important to risk for something that common.”В 

“Agreed,” I state easily, and it’s my inflect to hide my smile as I besides stand. “And that isn’t the kind of I was proposing. I’m going to be under the necessity to insist on a short avocation,” I add as gravely as I have power to in order to maximize the scaramouch line. “Just to make sure we’re being of the cl~s who sexually compatible as I believe us to have existence, but I have no objection to eventualВ  marriage, assuming of course there’s a enough dowry.”В 

He laughs out stentorian at that, which is another bond of points to me. “And the kind of would you consider a sufficient dower, Doctor Jackson?”В 

Shrugging, I bring the smile away permanently, because this is in which place I make it or break it. I dress in’t want to think about which working here will be like on the supposition that this fails.В 

Sliding my hands into my pockets, I assume a completely important air, as befits the subject trouble. “The usual. Five head of bovine quadrupeds and exclusive access to your channel for the rest of our indigenous lives.”В 

His jaw drops. Clearly, he wasn’t expecting me to subsist this serious or this forward, on the other hand he recovers quickly. “I don’t be the subject of any–”В 

“I’m willing to reject the cows,” I concede with a dismissive gesticulate as I close the gap betwixt us with a single step, regular this side of inappropriately close. “Do we accept a deal on the rest?” I grasp his eyes with mine and therefore wait while he decides our coming events.В 

His mouth is open, further no sound is coming out. If it weren’t because the damned camera, I’d occupy completely it with my tongue and brand the contract paid, but all I have power to do is give him a courteous nudge.В 

I lower my chin happy a bit so that I’m looking up at him from from one side to the other top my glasses, and I speak softly, “The two words you’re looking by reason of, Jack, are ‘I’, and ‘do’.”В 

After a lengthy couple of seconds wherein his visage loses all its color, he mutters, “Jesus Christ, you’re grave.”В 

“I’ve never been greater degree serious about anything in my life. If it’ll gift the scales in my favor respecting the whole fraternization thing, I’ll on the same level throw in my resignation from the program.” I may be obliged to do that anyway, because suddenly, having given myself permission to imagine the two of us together for real, I dress in’t think I can ever proceed back toВ  us just being friends. I perceive that I’m completely at pacification with this decision.В 

“Daniel, this program of necessity you–”В 

I shake my capital. “I need you more.”В 

He seems taken to the rear by this. “Do not,” he challenges.В 

“Do in the way that,” I counter firmly. “Shall I make evident here? Over your desk?”В 

“Not allowing that either one of us wants to stay employed.”В 

“Your put under cover , then?” I consult my watch. “Say, thirty minutes? We’ll strait to stop at the drug husband for beer and–”В 

Without warning, he flicks off the lights, that plunges the room into near gross amount darkness. The muted glow of the dimmer corridor lights shows only a vague outline of his profile to my unadjusted eyes. He’s smiling since his hand finds my nape easily, planting there, warm and heavy and abounding of promise. “Let’s make it twenty. I’ve got everything I want.”В  В 

And now my centre of circulation’s pounding for an entirely separate reason as my body begins to cor~ to his touch. “What a exact overlapping,” I reply, trying unsuccessfully to put down my smug grin. “Me too.”В 

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