*
im back home for good…at least for now. can you come thru?
Jasmeen
Jasmeen sighed as she read Trey’s text message. He was officially done with his touring overseas and he was going to be in LA for the most part until the beginning of the new year. He would be recording his album which would still keep him busy but at least he would only be 15 minutes away instead of 15,000 miles away.
At least thats what she should be thinking, any other girl would be excited and jumping at the chance to see their fiance after they were away for so long but she was still confused.
She still loved Mijo with all of her heart and no matter how much she loved Trey as well, it would never compare.
She just didnt know how to tell Trey this without breaking his heart but was there really a nice way to say this to someone?
Hey babe, I know you really want to marry me but I cant let that happen because I’d rather walk down the aisle with someone else, my bad.
Hey sweetie, Ive been lying to you, Ive slept with my ex three times but I feel really guilty nonetheless.
I love you, I really do, just not as much as him.
She might as well just kill him and thats what made it even worse. She felt like a murderer.
babe you there?
His next text brought her out of her thoughts and she realized she has been standing there in the middle of her bedroom, with her phone in her hand, lost in thought for who knows how long.
yeah im here sorry. im glad ur back
so you coming through?
Was she coming through? She didnt know. Has she truly come through for him lately? Hell no. She sighed, but she had to put herself in his shoes. If Trey were doing this, sleeping around with his exes, she would rather find out from him, set his shit on fire and throw his ring into the ocean. Trey should have that same respect right? Well except setting her shit on fire. All her shit was in Bree’s mansion and Bree shouldnt have to pay for her mistakes.
Maybe she should move out and then tell him?
STOP STALLING!
jas u busy babe? i thought you had the day off?
Jas sighed and shook her head, trying to shake herself out of her thoughts. im here babe sorry. im on my way. ill be there soon
great i cant wait to see you. love you
love you too, she typed and wanted to erase it but she sent it anyway.
She did love Trey, but in a fucked up way and she had to let him go.
Though Maurice did it to Bree and she hated him for it, deep down she was glad that he did. Maurice didnt have a hold on her and she could truly let go. She could move on to somebody else. Wale said that one of his label mates, Meek Mill or something like that had the biggest crush on her. Maybe she should set her up?
But before she could fix anyone’s love life, she had to fix hers.
She had to tell him.
Tears fell down her face at the realization and she looked at her engagement ring, she took it off and inspected it. It was perfect, all the girls who saw it gushed over how perfect it was. How many houses it could buy. It showed just how much Trey loved her. But she didnt deserve it.
Looking at it brought her back to the promise ring that Mijo gave her too. It was smaller but it was worth a lot more to her, in her heart anyway….until she found out the truth behind it. But she remembered the conversation with Mijo that night and after years of digesting it and her time with him recently, she was glad he didnt marry her then. Maybe it would have been different circumstances then but she knows that right now she wasnt ready to be married, she didnt deserve to be anyones wife right now.
And Trey had to know this. Today.
She sat there and cried her eyes out because she knew that by the time this conversation would be over, she wouldnt be engaged anymore, she wouldnt be planning a wedding any longer and she would be single. Again. But worst of all, Trey would be heartbroken.
When she was all cried out, she washed her face, reapplied her makeup and put some Visine in her eyes to get rid of the redness. She got her things together, put on her shades and took a deep breath and got in her car and left.
She took the long way to Trey’s mansion. As she drove, she tried to think of what to say and what not to say but it was still too soon when she pulled up to the house and parked next to Trey’s various luxury cars. She sighed as she sat in the seat and closed her eyes. She prayed that this conversation would go well. She stared at the ring and took it off. She then decided against it and put it back on. She was sure she wont have this ring for long and her finger would soon be feeling naked without it.
"You can do this Jas"she said to herself but in the back of her mind a small voice was telling her that this was going to be the hardest thing that she will ever do in life and she didnt have to. But she ignored it. She tried that and she didnt think it was going to work that way.
She got out of the car and walked to the front door and took another deep breath and then let herself in. She walked into the massive foyer and looked around. No one was in sight but she digested it, took it all in until she heard his voice.
Trey
"Jas? Babe is that you?"
"Yeah, yeah its me"she said, wondering where his voice was coming from,"Are you upstairs?"
"In the living room. Come on in and help me out real quick"he said to her. She started walking towards the living room and tried to take deep breaths as she did so. She felt like she was walking toward the electric chair. She walked into the living room and literally jumped out of her skin when she saw what was waiting for her.
"SURPRISE!!!"the people in the room said as they threw white confetti at her and burst out laughing. Trey was smiling and in the middle of it all. He ran up to her and spun her around and planted a huge kiss on her lips. She was too surprised to return it but it was fine with him. She was really surprised, which he wanted, but she looked a little scared even, that he didnt plan but it was all good.
"Mom!?"Jas asked in shock as a woman walked up to her and gave her a hug,"Dad? What are you….what are you doing here?"
"Trey flew us out here for the surprise. He flew out his mom too and your wedding planners. His assistants set all of this up"Mrs. Evans said to her as they all hugged her
"Set…what up exactly?"she asked as her father hugged her close
"Its a surprise, a ‘lets plan a wedding get together’. Now we wont get through everything today but you two are getting married in 7 months and you two are so behind. Trey told us you two havent been agreeing and havent had the time but we are going to fix that right now. We have all the time in the world. We all have cleared our day for this and if you two wont agree we will all help you find a compromise. Isnt it wonderful? And I get to spend more time with Trey. When he asked your father for your hand in marriage I was against it at first since we havent spent much time with him but now that I see that hes put so much effort into it-"
"And he loves you, thats all that matters"her father finished her monologue for her. "And we dont see our baby girl enough because of your new clothing line, we are so proud of you"
"Yes we are but the clothing line will wait. We are planning the rest of your life here"her mother said as she lifted up her hand and admired the ring. "Oh this ring is beautiful. Trey you made the perfect choice"
"Thanks Miss Evans"
"Oh no call me Jennifer. You’re going to be my son in law"she said
Jas stared at all of them in shock. What were they doing here? Why did they plan this shit behind her back? A wedding planning party? That was a thing? They were all going to help plan the rest of her life right now? The rest of her life? Now? But she cant! She was here to break it off, not go through with it!!
"Jesus babe, we really scared you, huh? You’re shaking"Trey said as he held her hand and kissed it. He brought her over to sit down and her mom sat next to her and Trey’s mother sat next to him.
Shit, his mother was here. He flew her all the way from Virginia. He flew her parents all the way from New York. She cant leave him now. “Is that champagne?”she asked as she saw an assortment of champagne flutes on the table and she took one and downed it
"Aye shes getting turnt up"Trey said with a smile and they all laughed
"Now dont down the others sweetheart. All these champagnes are different and we need for you to be in your right mind so you can choose the correct one for the reception. Which one is she drinking now?"Jennifer asked one of their wedding planners
"That is the Bollinger champagne if you all want to try that. We can jump right into the wine tasting since the wedding parties are known to have a toast before the wedding as well"Madeline said to them as she passed around the Bollinger champagne to everyone,"This is very similar to the Pinot Noir. It has fruity and smoky flavors so if you favor wines made with black grapes, you’ll feel at home drinking this"
"I like it"Jennifer said,"How about you Jas?"
"It does the job"she said with a sigh when she realized that she had to sit through planning a wedding that wasnt going to happen. She could just tell them all to stop it right now but she couldnt break all their hearts at once. That she couldnt take. Besides, a conversation like this needed to be between her and Trey first.
"Jas will drink anything"Trey said with a smile as they all laughed and he put his arm around her. She smiled but she felt like she was dying inside. They tasted seven different champagnes and they all decided on the Armand de Brignac. Jas was a little sedated after all the tasting and she felt a new perspective wash over her. She looked at Trey as he listened attentively to Madeline, he looked so invested, so in love, he was determined to make their wedding day perfect. Was she making the right choice in walking away now?
"You picked the right man. I have a good feeling about this"her mom said as she whispered to her. "So much better than that Mijo character"she said with a shudder and Jas turned to her,"So glad you are over him and past all that. Thats the only way this will work"she said as Jas stared at her in horror
Jake
Meanwhile, downtown, Jake was working on U.G.L.Y’s website as he sat outside on the patio of the Galileo Cafe. With all the coffee that he finished drinking, he was getting a lot of work done. It would certainly be up and working by tonight and he knew that would make Mijo happy. He was so caught up in his work, he couldnt hear anything around him except the music coming out of his Beats by Dre headphones that he didnt notice someone walk towards him. He didnt look up from his laptop until he saw the person standing right in front of him. He glanced up at them and stared in shock when he realized who they were. He took off his headphones hastily
Naureen
"Hey"Naureen said to him
"Hey"he said to her
"Is this seat taken?"she asked him and he shook his head no as a waitress came over to them
"More coffee sir?"she asked him
"I think Im ok for now"he said
"And for you?"the waitress asked him
"I’ll have that new pumpkin latte"Naureen said and the waitress nodded and walked off. Naureen and Jake stared at each other in silence and then she decided to break it,"So um…how are you?"
"Good"
"What are you working on?"
"UGLY’s website. Im almost done"
"Thats good"she said and they sat in silence again. "I just got back from New York, before that we went to Barbados and before that we were in Dublin"
"We? You and J Cole?"he asked her with a slight attitude
"No…me and Bree. Me and Pisces. Jake, I told you J and I are just friends"
"It didnt look like it-"
"Well you were seeing things that night and you were drinking a lot too so…."she said and he sighed and went back to typing,"Look Im sorry about what happened that night. I made a mistake. So much was going on that day and I….I in no way wanted to hurt your feelings and I didnt know you had feelings for me"
"I dont have feelings for you"he lied and she looked at him,"I was just salty because you stood me up for a famous rapper. Im a guy, we’re territorial. I didnt know I was in competition….to be friends with you that is. I didnt know you even knew him like that and you two seemed closer than friends"
"It almost went down that route but Im not ready for a relationship like that. Hes in LA maybe….7 or 8 times out of the year and with Bree’s schedule, we’ll miss each other sometimes. Its better off that we’re just friends"she said,"I came here to get a latte and when I saw you I had to speak to you. So much stuff happened and I found myself wishing that I could call you to tell you about them-"
"Why did something happen? Something with that Leroy guy?"
"No, nothing like that. Just normal stuff. Funny stuff. Weird stuff. You know stuff friends talk about"she said as the waitress walked over and gave her her pumpkin latte. She took a sip and nodded,"Ooh this is good"
"So you’re saying you miss me?"Jake asked her, a slight fluttering happened in his stomach once he said that out loud
"Yeah I do. We got close very quickly. I can tell you anything"
"You cant live without me?"Jake asked her with a smirk
"Dont let it go to your head"she said as she side eyed him and he laughed,"You didnt miss me huh? You’re dating one of those Playboy bunnies from the club?"
"Nah havent seen them since that night. They were great company though"
"I bet"she said with a smirk
"Shut up"he said and then smiled at her,"I missed you too though. I had a heart to heart with Maurice the other day about Pisces and I was sworn to secrecy to not say anything"
"About him leaving her?"Naureen asked,"Yeah I know, I was there for the aftermath"
"Aftermath?"
"She was heartbroken"
"She knew it wasnt going to go anywhere right? I mean hes still with Kae"
"Yeah thats what I dont get. I mean why give someone up that you have an instant connection to? I dont understand it. I mean you’re around those two. Are they anything like what you saw when Reece brought you over to her place?"
"No. But thats not fair because Kae is different. Really different"
"Does he love her?"
"I dont know to be honest. I havent seen her lately come to think of it but Ive been busy with these websites"Jake said with a shrug. "Its best to let it go. It will drive you crazy"he said to her, which was funny, he was telling himself the same thing after their disagreement at the club
"I just dont like seeing my cuzzie hurt thats all"Naureen said and sighed,"One more question"
"What?"
"Is Maurice hurt?"she asked him
Jake nodded,”Yeah he was really upset about it. But he kept saying that he was saving her from heartbreak. He didnt want to hurt her anymore and thats what he told her”
"Yeah but shes still hurt by it"Naureen said
"At least he did it with good intentions, I think that means he still loves her…but hey what do I know?"Jake said with a shrug. He feels like hes never truly been in love before.
"Dont sell yourself short. You’re right for the most part"Naureen said with a smile as she looked him over. Living in California was doing him wonders, he had a tan, his dark hair was a little bit lighter and was it just her because his blue eyes looked extra blue today? "So how long are you going to be working on your website?"
"Im basically done, why?"
"I have a free day. Maybe we can hang out since you miss me so much?"she asked and winked at him and he laughed. He saved his work and closed his laptop. He was ahead of his deadline anyway and he could use the break. She was right anyway, he did miss her.
They went to the movies and then returned to Bree’s mansion. Bree and Genn were in the studio and Jas was probably with Trey so they would have the mansion to themselves. Or so they thought…
They walked in and saw Jose helping Lee carry her bags upstairs. Naureen smiled when she saw her. “You’re back”she said as she hugged her
Lee
"Yeah I had to leave. I missed you guys. I missed working and I just needed to get off that island. I went to Miami for a few days to see Wale and then flew out here"Lee said and then smiled when she saw Jake. "Josh right?"
"Uh no, Im Jake..but close enough"he said as he reached out and shook her hand. She paused as she stared at him. His accent caught her off guard, it shocked her now just as much as it did when she first met him when Maurice brought him over. He sounded so much like Heath that it was uncanny.
"You ok?"Naureen asked her, noticing her pause
"Yeah….you just….remind me of someone"she said to him and looked at Naureen,"Im gonna go upstairs and rest"she said,"It was nice seeing you Jake"
"You too Lee"Jake said to her and she smiled at him sadly and went upstairs. "What was that about? I remind her of someone?"
"Heath Ledger"
"The actor? Cool. Must be the accent huh?"
"Yeah…and other things I guess"she said as she looked him over,"So Im starving, lets see what the chef can make us huh?"she asked him as she led him to the kitchen
*
The Taurus man will seek some respect or appreciation from her which is easily given by Pisces woman as she finds his help very important for her personal growth.
*
Mijo
It was almost 2 am and Mijo had just gotten back from a full day in the studio with UGLY. He looked around for his box of Newport’s and realized the pack was empty. He sighed, not wanting to go out again. He gave up and kicked off his Jordans and laid down in bed and turned the tv on. He flipped through the channels and stopped when he got to HBO. Soft porn was on. That will do for now. It was good for two things, good or bad. If it was good, he could get off to it. If it was bad, it would put him to sleep and sleep was good these days. He wasnt getting enough of it really.
In this case though, this soft porn was bad. He sighed and felt himself nodding off when a loud series of banging came at his door. Who the fuck was that? He shot up out of bed. Maybe it was Stormi, she was really flirty today and kept teasing him about coming by. He opened the door and was surprised to see a very angry Jasmeen at the door, she pushed past him as she walked inside and he closed the door behind her. He was very surprised to see her, he hasnt heard from her in days and he thought that maybe she had given up on him and went back to Trey. It hurt, especially since he specifically told her to let him know if she was leaving him but maybe this meant that she wasnt?
"Jas, you should call before you barge in here at 2:30 in the morning"he asked her groggily as she paced around the room. "Whats wrong?"
"My fucking mother"she said angrily
Mijo sighed, her mother was the only person who could get under her skin like this. Her mother wasnt his favorite person either though, especially after how she treated him when he first met her four years ago. Wow, was it really that long ago? “What did she do now?”
"Everything. Shes trying to take over my life again! And its all Trey’s fault, hes letting her do it!"
"I dont understand"he said as he tried to wake himself up as he turned off the tv quickly
"I finally got the courage to break it off with him. I sat down and cried and thought it all through and I went over to tell him the truth"Jas said frustratingly as she continued to pace. Mijo followed her frantic movements with his head and it looked like he was watching a tennis match. He looked at her in hopeful surprise when she said she broke if off with Trey. She did it? Really? He thought she didnt have the balls to be honest. "And then I get there and he throws me this stupid wedding planning party. He flew my parents out and his mom and our wedding planners. He didnt tell me!!!! I know he wasnt supposed to since it was a surprise but it couldnt have come at the worst fucking time and my mom was in my fucking ear the whole time! Saying we should do this instead of that, have these colors instead of that! It was a fucking mess! I had to plan a wedding for hours when all I wanted to do was get out!"
"Damn babe talk about bad timing"he said sadly, his hope deflating as his phone buzzed. It was a text from Stormi. What was she still doing up? He smirked as he replied back as quickly as he could
"Yeah I must be all about bad timing huh because as I can see, you dont have time for me either"she said as she watched him text. "Is that your bitch?"
"Whoa! Jas chill out! What do you expect when you come over here at 2:30 in the morning! You’re lucky she wasnt here-"
"No, SHE’S lucky that she wasnt here"Jasmeen said with an attitude
"Come on Jas, chill out-"
"DONT TELL ME TO FUCKING CHILL OUT!? ARE YOU UNDERSTANDING WHAT IM TRYING TO TELL YOU!?"
"YES!"he shouted back at her. "Look Jas, you should have just thanked everyone for coming, told them that you and Trey needed to talk alone about some things and then pulled him to the side and explain everything. Why didnt you do that?"
"It wasnt that simple!"she hissed at him
"I know how complicated it is Jas because Im in the fucking middle of it! Im trying to help you-"
"Its too late. You werent there-"
"Jas, theres no simple way to tell your fiance that you have been cheating on him-"
"YOU THINK I DONT KNOW THAT!?"
"NO I THINK YOU DONT! THATS WHY YOU’RE FREAKING OUT AND YELLING AT ME!"he shouted back at her. "Fuck. I mean what are you even doing here anyway? Shouldnt you be trying your best to get him alone? Its almost 3 am. This would be the perfect time to get him alone"
"Hes tired from all the wedding stuff. My mom can easily wear people out with her opinions. Hes sleeping"
"Well maybe he’ll sleep on it. Realize he doesnt want to marry you since your mom is fucking crazy and break it off and you wont have to worry about anything-"
"Are you fucking serious? Can you be serious for a minute?"
"I was being serious"
"Really? Was that why you changed your mind 3 years ago?"she asked him and that comment hit him in the core
"Really? You wanna go there? We talked about this in Miami. Remember? The night you flew out of my life and broke up with me without having the decency to fucking tell me? You know why I decided I didnt want to marry you. I WASNT READY AND I MADE A MISTAKE AND THOUGHT YOU WERENT EITHER!"he said to her. "You want some advice? Do the same thing to Trey. Just fly out of his life, change your number and leave him for dead because it worked out so well for me!"
Jasmeen was so enraged that she reached out and tried to slap him but Mijo had quick reflexes and dodged it. They both stood there in awkward silence. Jasmeen put her head in her hands and started crying but Mijo was so upset that he didnt want to hear it. She didnt want his help? Fine. She was doing this to herself anyway. She needed to fucking grow up. “Mijo Im so sorry”she sobbed
"FOR WHAT?! HUH? LEAVING ME FOR DEAD THREE YEARS AGO OR TRYING TO SLAP THE SHIT OUTTA ME BECAUSE IM RIGHT?"he shouted at her. He then took a deep breath as she slumped down onto the bed and continued to cry. He should calm himself before he gets himself kicked out of this hotel. "You’re lucky you missed. I need a fucking cigarette. Im gonna go get me a pack of Newports and if you’re still here when I get back, I hope you have your shit together"he said as he got on his shoes and got his keys and wallet and walked out of the room and slammed the door behind him.
Everyone needed a good drive and a cigarette sometimes. You got some fresh air, good tunes to listen to and a vice to indulge in when you were stressed out. It usually helped Mijo calm down. However, when he got to the gas station and got his pack of cigarettes, he felt guilty for leaving Jas there crying. He saw her favorite flavor of ice cream and bought it as well. She may not even be there when he got back but every time he saw it, he thought of her anyway.
She needed someone to think about her. She needed help really. What was going on with her that she was acting so out of pocket? It wasnt her. Getting married to Trey was turning her into a person he didnt recognize. Or was it the added stress of trying to start her new business? The public scrutiny? People wanting her line to fail? He saw the comments on the blogs. A lot of people thought that Jas only got her success because she was ‘friends’ with Trey and Breana and that she didnt have true talent. She was a ‘nobody who got lucky’. He wanted to punch every person who thought that in the face. They didnt know how hard she worked all these years. He knew though because he was there when she was just starting out.
He was calm when he got to the hotel and he had a new perspective and he hoped that if Jas was still there that she was ok. He opened the door and was surprised that she was still there. She was sitting on the bed, looking at the floor. He closed the door behind him and stood there. “You good?”he asked her
She nodded,”Im sorry”
"Its ok-"
"For everything. Im a horrible person-"
"Stop Jas, thats the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard. You’re far from horrible ok? I would know"he said as he took the small carton of ice cream out of the plastic bag and she smiled at him. "I got your favorite. You want some?"he asked her and she nodded. He kicked off his sneakers and walked over to her and sat down next to her. He ripped off the plastic wrapping that was around the lid, opened it and tore off the sheet. He gave her a plastic spoon.
"What do you even like about me?"she asked as she looked at him
Mijo chuckled and shook his head,”Eat”
"Im serious, can you even tell me?"she asked him
He looked at her and saw that she looked miserable. Her light skin was pink, there were bags under her eyes, smudged dark makeup covered parts of her face. “Jas, I have a whole list”he said,”You arent gonna eat?”he asked her and she just looked at him. “Oh…you actually want me to tell you?”he asked her and she nodded. “Well what I dont like is the fact that you’re letting the ice cream melt”he said as he took the carton and spoon from her and took a few spoonfuls and ate it
"Im serious Mijo"she said
"Its kind of impossible to do, I cant just sum it all up"he said
"Its not impossible…"
He chuckled and tried to get serious as he studied her,”You’re very smart…which isnt much coming from me but still….um…you’re beautiful…that goes without saying. Sexy. You’re fucking sexy Jas. I love your eyes. Your moles…..um….the way you walk, you look really good doing that. I dont know how but….yeah….”
"I feel really ugly"Jas said to him honestly,"Just a horrible person…but….but when I wake up and get to work I cant concentrate. And not being able to concentrate when I finally have my dream isnt good. Bad timing. Again. And I do love Trey, Im sorry but I do but its not the same…..shit I dont know what Im thinking sometimes"
"I know. I can see it and I wanna help you but I dont know how"he said to her as a tear fell down her face and he wiped it away for her. She paused at his touch and a shiver went down her spine. It always happened when he touched her and she smiled. He smiled too. "So what do you like about me?"he asked her, trying to make a joke about it and she chuckled. "Come on say something good"she said and she just laughed,"See? Its kinda hard to put it into words. Its not easy"
"Nothings easy"she said
"I like your laugh. And when you smile too"he said as he brushed her blonde curls out of her face. "Its gonna be ok Jas"he said to her. He then leaned in and kissed her. Every time he kissed her, it was a big thing to him because he didnt know if it would be the last time. So he always kissed her and loved her like he would never see her again and as he started taking off her clothes, he made sure that he would do just that.
*
Maurice
Maurice has been pretty quiet hasnt he? That was the point. He was trying his best to stay out of any drama. He had a very routine schedule. Wake up, go to the studio or perform, go to therapy. Yeah he went back. He was trying to let all of his demons go, or as much as he could let go. Sometimes he didnt believe he could be free of all of them but damn it, he could try.
He kept his distance from a lot of people. Even OHB and most of his friends. His house was now empty. Just him and the dogs. It was hard at first, he couldnt do it and he found himself getting weak and wanting to call Kae. Tell her whatever she wanted to hear so that he wouldnt sleep alone anymore. But he knew it wasnt right. If he said he was letting her go, his actions had to match. So he slept at Mama J’s. She never turned him down, she always loved seeing him and the dogs. Then he decided to truly be on his own, have some ‘me time’ for once. The first night was bad, he couldnt sleep. He took a few Vicodin’s Kae left behind to help him sleep. He could never sleep alone. Its like his body rejected it for him and his mind too. However, DD and Diamond loved sleeping in his bed so that took care of that. They were truly all he needed. After all, they were man’s best friend.
Finally he got used to it and he enjoyed walking around his house naked, doing whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted. He made himself some breakfast and lounged on his couch and checked Twitter on his phone. He favorited a few tweets from his fans and retweeted some. He then noticed he had a DM and he opened it.
It was from Bree.
She sent it a few weeks ago and he was surprised that she contacted him at all. He had let her go after all, which was the hardest thing he has ever done lately. He cried for days over it knowing he had hurt her. The look on her face haunted his dreams. He was still trying to forgive himself for it and that was the main reason he was in therapy.
u prolly dont care but heres the final edit of wfl. i wanted to send it to u 1st cuz well its about u. if u have any issues speak now or 4ever hold ur peace
He realized he was too late. He remembered that the video already premiered. A lot of his fans were still fans of hers too. He saw links, pictures and lyrics of the song all over his timeline but he never had the strength to watch it. However, he suddenly had the strength now.
And he ended up watching it 10 times in a row. He was in shock. It was a masterpiece. It would win Best Video at every awards show, it was that amazing. He also wasnt bothered by Trevor The Terror being in it. He didnt look like himself, he found it funny that his hair was dyed to match his. He was proud of her. He laughed at all the fun they had, remembering they did the same things. He cringed at them arguing in the car and it brought him back to the argument they had a few days after the restraining order was lifted, when Blake had to literally pick her up and drag her away. He tried to read her lips to see if she told Trevor that ‘his dick was a hotbed full of herpes waiting to happen’ too. He chuckled at that. Bree always had a way with words.
the video is amazing!!!, he typed. im sorry im replying so late but i
Then he stopped and sighed, he cant reach out to her. If he did, Bree may give in and message him back and they would go through a roller coaster all over again. He couldnt hurt her anymore. He didnt deserve her anymore and thats how it had to be. She was better off without him. He erased his reply and forced himself to close out his messages. He went back to his mentions and continued to favorite a few tweets. He then saw a tweet from Perez Hilton in his mentions and his mood instantly soured. He hated that guy almost as much as he hated him. But for some reason he filled his mentions with bullshit.
@PerezHilton: Are @mauricebrown and @karrueche through? It seems so because Karrueche has found herself a new boo!
Maurice shook his head,”Nigga has more periods than the average bitch”he said to himself but he was intrigued by what it said. Did Kae really move on? He shook his head but soon curiosity got the best of him and he googled her. Not much showed up but it seemed that Perez may be on to something because Kae and some unknown punk was photographed leaving her condo, the condo he bought her by the way. He could feel himself getting angry but he had to expect this. He didnt think it would happen so soon.
She was better off too. They both were.
He googled Bree and a million images showed up. Surprisingly, her candids just showed her with her girls. He was glad. There were rumors that she and Drake were hitting it off again and he wanted to die when he heard that. Some promo images for her new album showed up and he found himself staring at them, just lost in her beauty
His phone rang and he literally jumped out of his daydream. He answered it,”Yo?”
"Today’s the big day man. You ready?"Jake asked him
"Yeah Im ready"Maurice lied as he ran upstairs and got dressed
"Ok well the stylists should be showing up soon and Im on my way. You want video footage or just straight up photos?"
"Both, we’ll see what happens"Maurice said. "See you soon"he said as he put on a wifebeater and sweatpants. He almost forgot what day it was. The doorbell rang and soon his house was filled with people. Which now was a rarity.
Today was the American Music Awards. It would be his first time performing at this event since the incident and he felt he had something to prove. Again. He felt like that was his curse now. No matter how good he felt he did, it didnt matter to some people after what happened. Maybe he’ll change some minds tonight. The last time he performed at the AMA’s was in 2008. Sadly, though, he felt that was as good as it was going to get for him. He remembered that night well. He and Bree both took home awards but he took home the biggest award of the night, Artist of the Year.
He got a fresh shape up and a fresh outfit and jewelry to go with it and Jake documented everything. They then headed to the venue and did a sound check and then he walked the red carpet. He didnt give interviews anymore because most people thought they could say any damn thing to him or only asked about Bree and he didnt have time for either.
He found himself looking for Bree anyway. He wondered if she would show up but he didnt see her on the carpet at all.
Soon the show started and it was a good one but he realized that Bree wasnt there and he was disappointed. Even more so when he saw Drake was there and would be performing too, near the end of the show. He already lost out to Usher for Best Soul/R&B artist and he had a feeling he wasnt going to get Best Soul/R&B Album. Coincidentally, Bree was in the same category alongside Beyonce. One of them was going to take it for sure.
"Im gonna leave after my performance"he said to Tyga and Travie McCoy
Tyga
"But the show just started?! Why? Cuz Drake is here? Ya’ll cant end the beef and talk it out?"Tyga asked
"Nah. Its too late"Maurice said
Travie
"I wanna do the same thing to be honest. Its hard with her here"Travie said as he nodded his head to Katy Perry and Russell Brand. It was a big night for her. She had one of the biggest albums of the year. She had 5 #1 singles off of it and she was tied with Michael Jackson, to hold a record like that. He was happy for her. But it was bittersweet that she moved on and got married. But what did he expect? If he didnt get clean, she would leave. He was clean now and his album with Gym Class Heroes was doing well but it was too late for them.
"Im sorry man"Maurice said, he remembered the four of them hanging out together. He and Bree and Travie and Katy. Travie couldnt say the same. He was high most of the time and lost a lot of memories.
"Maurice Brown? Its time"a stage manager said to him during a commercial break and Maurice nodded. He dapped up Travie and Tyga and went backstage and got ready. His new stylist wanted him to wear a loud and gaudy outfit but he decided against it at the last minute as he took off his suit and put on a simple pair of dark pants and a white t shirt
"Whats the point of you paying me if you arent going to listen to me?"she asked him with an attitude
"Good point. You want me to cash your check instead then?"he asked her and she shut up,"Exactly. I changed my mind. I wanna do this simple. One stage light. Just me. I dont need a big old show like everyone else"he said.
50 Cent introduced him and he walked up to the mic as the band played the intro and the one bright white light shined down on him. He sang ‘All Back’ and as he closed his eyes and sang, all he could think about was Bree. How he missed the old days. How everyone in this room used to respect him instead of a random handful. He missed his glory days, but most of all he missed her. And though she wasnt here, he hoped that maybe she was watching and she could see it.
Breana
And she did. She was back on tour again and was performing in Brazil to make up for a show she had to postpone this past summer. She had just finished her show and was getting ready to go to sleep but when she saw Maurice singing her favorite songs in a simple white tee, she couldnt help but watch. She wanted to call him and tell him how great he did. But she couldnt and it killed her. She continued to watch the show, only because she promised Drake that she would. When the Best Soul/R&B Album category was introduced, she found herself hoping that Maurice would win. He truly deserved it. His album was great and he worked really hard and defied the odds against him.
When they announced that she won, she smiled and tweeted a big thank you to the Academy and all of her fans but for the first time, deep down, the win was bittersweet because she wanted it for him far more than for herself…
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Pisces woman finds a stable life in the company of Taurus man.
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All in baby. Don’t hold nothing back. Wanna take control. Nothing wrong with that. - Rihanna
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