Something Perverse
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-My love?
Reagan turned her head to find the worried eyes of her girlfriend. Her eyebrows were up and her lips slightly curled.
-Yeah? –she was feeling weird after what she saw.
-everything’s ok? –Karma whispered with one hand covering her mouth.
-yeah…
Karma gave her those eyes, the ones who said that she was about to get mad, so the transcription of that was: no kisses today.
No way that’s happening to me.
-Calm down, babe. –she whispered back winking and eye. She knew Karma liked all that silly details.
And there it was the blushed in her cheeks. She was the cutest girl of the world.
-stop with your… seduce technics!
-Sorry, babe, you met me like this, and this is how I’ll always be. –Reagan smiled licking her lips softly. –it would be that hard for you to just enjoy me?
Karma now was so red that Reagan could feel the heat of her body, but her little girlfriend couldn’t say anything because the teacher shut them up in one second.
-Damn girls. –he said scratching his bald head. –if you keep talking I swear I’ll get you two expelled!
They didn’t respond (though Reagan was closed to), it was useless. He could get them in big problems, and more for Reagan because this fucking man was the same she saw kissing Alice, the old lady of the clothes in her first day, so better if she stayed away of the danger. Of course, she thought he was an ass.
-Hey, mister Daniels. –Chloe raised her hand. –Is it necessary to have class today, is the last day of the Halloween week and is supposed that we don’t have classes and…
-blah, blah, blah! –he interrupted her. –I don’t care about that, little miss, so please close your mouth.
Chloe didn’t say anything else, but it could be seen a murderer look on her face. But Reagan didn’t feel bad for her, she hated her a bit for what she did to Amy, well she and Amy were fighting right now but still, no girl deserves that.
I think.
Math class went boring, and boring, and more boring until Daniels announced the end of the class.
-And remember. –he said before everyone leaves. –Sunday is the math text, everything we saw today is gonna be on it so, study hard.
-But! –Vanessa said getting up. –Sunday is the Halloween party! The last day of our “free week”, you can’t do this!
Daniels smiled without looking at Vanessa. –The thing here is that I can, and I’ll do it. –he crossed his arms waiting for someone to contradict him. Nobody did. –so, see you next Sunday, girls!
-This is the worst Wednesday ever! –Vanessa sighed hugging Reagan and Karma. –Why this man has to be a dick?
Karma nodded, agreeing with Vanessa. Reagan just made a weird sound, the fact was that if the test was on Sunday, Monday, Thursday, or whatever other day she’ll do it without studying.
-and where is Lauren? –Vanessa asked. –she’s going to go mental about the test. She missed the whole class!
Images of Lauren kissing Amy punched Reagan right in the chest. She tried not to think about that the whole class but if was so difficult. She couldn’t stop thinking about…
Oh my god, that was incest right? It had to be, there was tongue included? Without tongue doesn’t count? I don’t understand anything!
-Rae. –Karma holds her hand. –are feeling sick? Your face is weird.
-Let’s be honest. –Vanessa said. –Reagan with that pink uniform seems sick all the time.
Something that wasn’t really far from reality, really, pink wasn’t Reagan’s color.
-Don’t say that. –Karma said holding harder the hand of her girlfriend. –My love looks good with anything she wears.
Reagan will never admit to anyone, but those silly comments of Karma made her melt in the inside. She wasn’t used to that warming love, so everything felt stronger.
-All the Babies! –the voice of Karma’s mom surrounded everyone. –Urgent reunion in the auditorium right now! I repeat, all the babies have to be in the auditorium right now!
-Oh my… -Karma said more to herself.
-what? –Reagan asked.
-It’s just… everytime my mom calls for a reunion –she swallowed-, nothing good happens.
-Yep. –Vanessa agreed. –so let’s hurry or we’ll be in troubles.
While they were walking to the auditorium Reagan stopped making Karma come close to her.
-What’s happening, Rae? –she asked nervous.
-I just don’t like to see you nervous. –Reagan whispered softly. She kissed her lips tenderly. –Don’t worry, I’m sure it’s not gonna be anything bad.
That made Karma feel a little better, and them, they followed Vanessa to the auditorium.
It was huge, with images of people Reagan didn’t know covering the walls. All the girls walking with their nice legs moving to the same rhythm made Reagan’s skin a bit hot. Not her fault, though. Beautiful girls usually do that to her.
They sit at the bottom, not wanting to be close of the principal. Reagan found then that Karma was more scared of her mom than anyone else. Like if all of this was in some way her fault.
Minutes later, Lauren came with her head down and Reagan got tense instantly. The little blond seated right to Vanessa without saying anything. Her eyes were red and her make up a bit screwed.
Vanessa began to interrogate her, but Reagan couldn’t hear what they were talking.
-Good, Babies. –Molly started. –I’ll be very pleased to be here to announced something good or something that will make us proud, like the achievements of our greatest students in the past, but this is not the reason of this reunion.
No one said a word.
-It came to my knowledge the behavior of some students that can only be described as perverse, evil, simply disgusting. –she made a pause to give more emphasis. –and that, is of course the act of two girls together. Yes, you heard right, two girls acting as a couple, faking that they’re actually a real couple. It’s beyond of me if some students are… broken in the inside, but listen to me well. This. Will. Not. Be. Permitted. Not in my school, not while I’m the principal.
Reagan felt Karma’s hand getting hot and sweaty.
-We don’t know who are the ones doing this act against God, but be sure, we will find out who is responsible of this. Besides this, the Halloween’s party is still on foot. You can wear any costume, that’s on you. –she breathed. –Now, go back to your activities, enjoy the weekend, and remember if you see something, report it immediately. This school can’t lose its prestige.
Everyone began to get up slowly, tasting the bitter words of the principal. It was very explicit. You are a lesbian, and you’re fucking out of the school. That was pretty much the summary of her speech.
But that wasn’t what Reagan was concerned about. She was very worried for Karma. Her skin was pale and her eyes lost in thoughts. Reagan knew this wasn’t the moment to talk about it. Too many ears, someone could speak about them.
From now on they will have to be careful about her relationship, because, being honest, Reagan couldn’t care less if she gets expelled of the school, but for Karma that could be hell on earth and after hearing the principal, Reagan had no doubt that even if it was her own daughter, she’d get her out of the school.
Lauren and Vanessa were to their room in silence. The blonde with her face as a complete mess and the other with a worried look. Reagan didn’t know if she was a lesbian, but she tried to kiss her, so she was at least bi, thing that was for sure perverse too for Molly Ashcroft.
Karma went straight to bed without saying anything.
-So, good night, thing. –Reagan said to the sheets. –I love you too, so dream with little angels and with me by your side.
-Oh god, stop! –Karma said looking at her from her bed.
-Well, you’re not talking so I thought I could say whatever I want.
Karma’s eyes began to water. –I’m sorry, Rae, it’s just… I’m scared, please let’s not fight. –she made space for Reagan to sleep with her. –Please, I don’t wanna fight.
Reagan got in bed slowly, expecting for her to say something else, but apparently there will not be more words today. She felt her little red hair girl cuddling with her. It felt good, but something in Reagan’s guts told her things were just about to get bad.
The Devil on Your Shoulder
The sun presaged a good day, but that weird feeling could still be felt in Reagan’s guts. The speech of yesterday was going to make things harder for her and Karma. And other people but she was worried about her girl right now.
Her little thing began to get dressed, acting as the usual good girl she is. But it felt faked.
-Please, stop faking it. –Reagan blurted out. –I know you’re not okay.
-I don’t have any idea what are you talking about. –she responded instantly. –you should get dressed fast, you have work today.
-Oh, fuck! –Reagan had forgotten she had to do some stupid jobs for the principal. And with Amy. Well, she wasn’t there the other day, maybe she’ll not be here today too.
She dressed with that her stupid uniform. Karma was preparing things in her bag, she had to do some work for the Sunday party.
-So, I’m not gonna get a goodbye kiss? –Reagan said sarcastically.
Karma let her head fall and her expression changed completely. She seemed vulnerable.
-Rae, don’t take this the wrong way, but I think we should be cautious about…
-About us. –Reagan completed. –You know, because we are girlfriends.
-I’m fully aware of that. –she said getting annoyed. –Why are you mad? I’m just trying to protect us!
-Because you’re acting as if we are not a thing, when we actually are, unless, of course you want to end this.
-I don’t wanna end this! –she screamed. –I just don’t wanna my mom to be disappointed of me! You wouldn’t understand.
A few times things punched Reagan at the bottom of her, and hearing Karma say that was one of them.
-so, you’re saying I’m a disappointment. –she concluded. –very well Karma, I’m sorry for not be a boy with white skin, blue eyes, and the son of an important businessman! I’m just what I am even if that doesn’t work for your perfect life!
-That’s totally not what I meant, Rae! –Karma screamed. –Why you don’t understand?! I do this is because I love you!
Silence.
Did I hear right? She-she… does she… love me?
Both girls stay there looking at everywhere except their faces, Reagan couldn’t think in something to do. She had heard girls telling her that when she was fucking them, but never of a person she really cares (except her mom, and her dog.)
Karma seemed so fragile and Reagan had the feeling she should have the same aspect.
-Karma… -Reagan started with no ideas. She just let her tongue talk. –Are you sure of… that?
She nodded slowly. –I know it’s not something simple, and that we are a official couple since a very short time. –she wiped some tears of her eyes. –But I do love you, Reagan, since the first time I saw you coming here. –she let out a small laugh. –you make my life a mess, but in the good sense, you help me to laugh more, and be more a teenager. I don’t have keep faking it all the time that I’m someone I’m not like I do with my mom since I’m a little girl. –she lifted her head to look straight to Reagan’s eyes. –with you I’m just…me, maybe this isn’t real love, I don’t know, but the reality is that I don’t care. I’ll take this feeling in the bottom of my heart and I’ll cherish it. –she got closer. –I can’t lose you. Not know that I cherish you so much.
Reagan didn’t talk. She cupped softly the face of her little girl and she kissed her like if this was the end of the world. The feeling was indescribable. She had never felt that someone cares about her that much, and with a surprise she found herself feeling the same for Karma.
-I cherish you too. –she whispered in her lips. The lips of her girlfriend.
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After more lady love (too much to be written here) Reagan went to do her job. This time she had to go to the infirmary (some girls were stealing some medicines). For the first time Reagan felt great in her job, she had a girl who loves her, a job to do when she could punch someone for stealing, and, the best part, not sight of Amy Raudenfeld.
Well, it’s her funeral.
Sadly, a couple of minutes later she found out that the job wasn’t that good. There was no one there, literally the only person in the infirmary was Reagan. She walked in circles until her legs began to get tired. She rested in one bed closing her eyes for one second.
-taking a nap, girl?
Reagan almost jumped off the bed. The image of an old lady with a friendly face appeared in front of her.
-Alice! –Reagan said, almost screaming. –you scared me.
-Sorry… Reagan right?
The girl nodded sitting at the edge of the bed. –What are you doing here?
-Well, I work here, darling. –she responded. At the same time she began to wear a nurse uniform.
-but I thought you were the one who takes care about the clothes.
-Yeah, I do that too. –she smiled. –Extra work, extra money.
-Money is good. –Reagan smiled. She liked Alice, she seemed like a normal person in this crazy place. –So, if I feel sick in the future I just come here and you’ll give me some drugs?
Alice laughed. –yeah, you wish, girl. Be lucky I work here today, if you should come on Wednesday you’d seen Beatriz.
-Beatriz?
-The another nurse. –she closed her eyes making her wrinkles appear. –she’s the biggest pain in the ass. If you want an advice, even if you’re dying, don’t come here when she’s working. That’s all I’m going to say.
-Whoa, she sounds awful. –Reagan said. –like the type of people who usually hates me.
-Oh, don’t say that, people don’t hate you.
-Some teachers do! Like Daniels, that… -she was about to said something awful when she remembered that Alice kissed Daniels. She saw that in her first day (an image she happily will erase of her mind, sadly that wasn’t possible).
-Don’t worry, Reagan. –Alice said not giving importance to the comment. –I know Daniels can be… unfair sometimes with his students. But He’s a good person in the deep of his heart.
-very deep I’ll say.
The two of them began to laugh and the day went very fast. Then again, nothing bad happened. The most interesting thing was when Katie came to the infirmary.
-Rae! –she said running to hug her. –I’d miss you!
-We see each other almost every day, Katie. –Reagan said smiling a bit.
-But still. –she pouted cutely. It was awesome that someone who could look so serious like Katie was so sweet. –Hey! I have to talk with you! –she looked at Alice. –You know, in private.
Reagan followed Katie to the outside. The corridor was empty so no one could hear them.
-Tell me. –Reagan said with curiosity.
-I’m a little worried, Reagan. –Katie whispered. –The speech of yesterday came to the young ladies and the queens. They even formed and organization to look for some lesbians to report it to that principal!
-You have to be fucking kidding me?
-Reagan! –Katie scolded her. –words!
-Ok, sorry, mom!
-I’m just worried because you… -her cheeks got red. –you know…
She had never talked with Katie about her relationship with Karma, but that was pretty much obvious to anyone who spent some time with them, and Katie spent a lot of time with them so practically was a secret which wasn’t a secret.
-Yeah, I know. –she said. –But how could they know about me and Karma?
-Someone said this began to happen when the new student appeared in the school. –her voice sounded sadly. –I know it’s not true, but they’re looking for someone to blame. Even if this happens in the babies sector, affects the whole school. Remember this is a catholic place. Old style catholic place.
-well, fuck…
-I’m helping with something for the party, but I came here to warning you. –she said. –they’re going to spy you, so be careful please.
-I, yeah, I mean, of course. –Katie hugs her one more time and began to go away. –Take care of Karma!
At any cost, Katie, at any cost.
After her work ended she went straight to her room. Karma wasn’t there. She saw a letter in her bed.
I need to speak with you immediately. Come to the church right now.
Principal, Molly Ashcroft.
This couldn’t be good.
She practically ran to the church, hopefully she’ll reach Karma before she gets to see her mom.
She ran through the stone path the faster she could. She saw the church and with that a little red point who just walk in the place.
She couldn’t use that door, it’ll be too obvious. The time she talked with Molly they did it just there. She needed to be closed enough….
The windows! There were little windows a bit up. If she could get there she’ll be able to see and listening everything.
Her eyes went side to side looking for a way. The trees were too far… there were no ladders…
Just in that moment, she saw one of the giant friends of Amy Raudenfeld. That girl was so big and if she got up to her shoulder she might be able to see.
-Hey! –she said running straight to her, maybe a dangerous movement because the girl began to lift up her fists. –Hey, calm down, girl! Look I need to….umm, to see for that window –she pointed to the one-, would you help me. I just need to be on your shoulders?
It sounded very stupid but was the unique thing Reagan was capable of say.
The girl seemed to be a seconds to destroy her, so she tried something else.
-And if I pay you?
That stopped the girl. –how much?
-ummm… twenty dollars. –she said counting her money. It was sad not to have anything but Karma was worth it.
She takes it with no word and began to kneel, Reagan got up and the world was little in seconds. This girl was really tall! She began to get on her feet, with her hands reached her window and slowly she opened.
She saw Karma and her mom arguing right there.
-I’m not going to say it again, Karma. –Molly said looking to a statue of an angel. –I’ll change you to another room.
-I don’t want that! –she said, Reagan could noticed she was about to cry. –I know why are you doing this but you’re wrong! Reagan and I are just friends!
-I-don’t-care. –she said. –You’re not gonna be by the side of that thing. –people are starting to talk horrible things about that Reagan girl. And… about you too.
Karma looked at the floor.
-It’s a good luck those rumors are just that, right Karma?
The girl was quiet as a mouse.
-Because you know what would happen to you if what I’ve heard is true. –Molly got closer to her daughter. –First of all, you’ll get expelled, I’ll disinherit you for our family and all our privileges. –she breathed once again. –I’ll kick you out of school, our house, and more important, of my life. So, think twice about your friends…think if it’s worth to have them.
Right then the world punched Reagan in the face, not just because of what she heard, but because the giant girl mad her fall to the ground.
-What the fuck?! –Reagan screamed to her.
-That’s the whole time twenty dollars could buy you. –she answered walking away. –If you need more help come to me. With more money.
What a prostitute.
Reagan knew she couldn’t talk with Karma now. It killed her but she’d to wait until night.
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Hours went slow. Slow. Slow. And Reagan wasn’t a patience person. She walked through the corridors trying to calm herself.
She just couldn’t believe that woman. Her own family was bad with her, but Molly Ashcroft was a monster. How could someone talk like that to a sweet girl like Karma? And worst of it, was that she couldn’t stop feeling guilty. This was happening because of her, and maybe they will not be roommates anymore. That would suck big time.
In her walks she saw Lauren, resting her body against the wall and sighing.
Oh right! The incest thing!
She had forgotten that, with all the Karma issues and now with her mom. Her mind has just some space for problems.
Reality was, Reagan didn’t wanna know what that meant, it wasn’t something of her business and she and Lauren weren’t friends friends, but… she seemed so sad that she found herself walking to her.
-Everything good, little one? –she asked.
She nodded. –I don’t really wanna speak right now.
-oookay, sorry. –Reagan responded a bit annoyed.
She began to walk way when Lauren spoke.
-Wait, Rae… I’m sorry. –she got closer to her. –I’m just a little sad I think.
-A little? –Reagan joked trying to change the mood. Some little smile appeared in Lauren’s face.
-It’s just, things are happening in my life right now and I… I don’t know how to deal with all of it.
-You know, you can trust me. –Reagan said. –I know I’m an ass and that I’m always making problems, but I’m loyal. You can tell me… whatever is happening to you right now.
Lauren looked at her eyes so serious. It was almost if she could read her thought. Her feelings. Everything. She felt naked.
-I’m in love. –she stated.
-well, that’s a good thing for what I know. –Reagan said. –What’s the problem with that.
Lauren looked at the sky, clearly uncomfortable, but it was like she needed to speak with someone.
-The problem is not that I’m in love, the problem is with who I’m in love.
Reagan waited, and waited, but the words didn’t come out of Lauren’s mouth. She couldn’t say it. Reagan was about to tell her that she already knew everything when she saw Karma walking to them.
-Bye, Reagan. –Lauren said walking away with the saddest look she had seen in her life.
But there was no much more time to think, Karma walked to her. She took her hand and holds it tight.
-can we talk? –she asked, inexpressively.
They walked in to their dorm. –so, tell me, Babe. –Reagan started she couldn’t keep waiting for an answer.
-I don’t know what to do. –she answered and she broke down right there, crying in Reagan shoulders, letting all out. Her pain was contagious and Reagan had the urge to punch Molly right in her damn face.
They got to bed, until the only thing that could be heard were the breath of both girls.
-My mom is going to change me to another room. –she whispered.
-well, fuck. –Reagan answered. More problems to see each other. –but don’t worry, beautiful, we can still kiss and be together.
-I know… it’s just. She said I can’t speak with you ever again. She… doesn’t want us to be friends anymore.
Obviously that meant other thing.
-And what did you say? –Reagan said fearing the answer.
I’m about to lose a girl Karma the same day I knew she loves me. Why is life so unfair with me?
-I said she couldn’t make me do what she wants.
-What? –Reagan was stunned. –you-you say that? Really?
Karma looked at her with her eyes shining. –I said that I love you, Reagan. That’s true. And I don’t care what my mom can do, I don’t care about anything. She can change my room or my classes or whatever other thing, but I’ll not leave you. –Karma kissed her softly. –I love you.
Reagan had no words. She was prepared to give up everything, just for her.
For me.
Reagan remembered the words of Karma in the morning, who expressed exactly how she felt right now:
Maybe this isn’t real love, I don’t know, but the reality is that I don’t care. I’ll take this feeling in the bottom of my heart and I’ll cherish it.