Hi everyone, I’m the author of Hold Back the River. I’ve had this story stuck in my head for awhile now so I figured I’d share… If people like it, ill continue it.
AU: Karma Ashcroft and her best friend Lauren Cooper have everything they’ve ever wanted. They’re cheerleaders, popular and never miss a party. Only Lauren doesn’t know that Karma’s been secretly hooking up with her step sister Amy who moved in with Lauren a month ago for there parents wedding. It’s meaningless isn’t it? What starts out as meaningless fun is starting to turn into something more for Karma. What happens when Karma’s forced to choose between Amy and her friendship with Lauren? With Liam Booker asking her out on a date we’re about to find out.
Apologies for all the mistakes I just don't have time to fix them!
Happy. That is the only word that can possibly be used to describe the life of Karma Ashcroft at the moment. She has everything she has ever dreamed off, a place on the cheer squad, a feisty gay best best friend, invitations to every party thrown in the school and most importantly the hottest guy in the school is fawning over her. The real question is how is it that one small moment, one glance in the wrong direction, one meeting of two pairs of eyes can change everything in a heartbeat.
Amy Raudenfeld. One second they’re just casual acquaintances and the next thing you know they’re meeting in supply closets all around the school just to get their fix of each other. Slipping each other notes in the corridors and stealing glances from their respective cafeteria tables has become a regular occurrence. Amy is the one secret that Karma is just not willing to give up.
Why are they not together? Two words – Lauren Cooper. Lauren and Karma have been best friends since kindergarten, an unbreakable bond was formed between the two girls over a sand pit. Karma and Lauren promised to be loyal to each other no matter what. During their younger years they would lie in Karma’s room, stare at her ceiling and talk about how the two of them would rule the school together when they finally made it to Hester High. Throughout the fights, the drama, the temper tantrums and the hot boys they promised that they would always stick together. A promise that Karma had always intended on keeping until she met Laurens step sister Amy for the first time a month ago and realized that there would be absolutely no reason for her to fight with Lauren over boys. She is too into this blonde girl in front of her for that to ever happen.
The problem is that Lauren and Amy have never gotten along and Karma knows all about it. When they were younger Lauren used to constantly bitch about the monster of a daughter her fathers girlfriend has and how much she hated having to spend large chunks of time with them together over the summer holidays. The ‘monster girl’ as Lauren described her was the complete polar opposite of everything that Karma and Lauren stood for. She doesn’t care about popularity, she’s not into fashion, she definitely doesn’t accessorize and she hates pom pom girls. Karma used to picture Amy as this disgusting human being who had no respect for others. Boy was she wrong.
Lauren cried the entire day the moving trucks were outside her house moving Amy and her Mom from California to Texas. Karma being the amazing best friend she is spend the entire day cuddling Lauren on her bed and watching America’s next top model re-runs. She remembers thinking about how hard it must be for Lauren to accept these new people into her life and treat them as family. From that day on she vowed to be the best friend she could ever possibly be to Lauren. Shane described her as ‘Never say no’ Karma and that’s how her life has suddenly become so complicated. She can never say no to Lauren.
'Karms, guess who wants to double date with us on Saturday night?’ Lauren’s stretching her legs into the splits beside Karma at cheer practice after school.
'Um, Chris and Liam Hemsworth?’ Karma shifts her position to avoid Shane’s 'get out of the closet’ glares from the other side of her.
'Think Hester High’s very own version of them. Theo and Liam Booker’ the entire squad erupts into squeals at their captains revelation. Theo and Liam are Hester High’s very own it boys. Gorgeous, play football and beyond charming. They look like they were plucked out of a Hollister campaign and sent by the gods to Hester Highs women as the ultimate eye candy. Any girl in the school would dive at the opportunity to date them. Including Karma, before she met Amy.
Amy who has been so patient with her inability to come out to her sister over the past month. Amy who has stepped back into the closet she left years ago for Karma. Amy who would more than likely disapprove of Karma dating a boy.
'Oh, right, Saturday. I can’t make it. I promised my mom and dad that I would help them figure out a new Karma-cosmo juice recipe. You know how they are about those kind of things!’ She’s lieing through her teeth but it’s so worth it to not have to go on this double date.
'Didn’t they re-name that juice Karma-cosmo-closet or something? If you ask me it has a much better ring to it’ Shane chimes in standing up with his hands on his hips. Giving him that spot on the squad was a huge mistake. His meddling abilities have only increased over time with the help of the cheerios.
'Karma you have got to be fucking kidding me. This is Liam Booker. The Liam Booker. Asking you on a date. Ditch the Karma-cosmo and get a bit of the love juice women! If everything goes according to plan he may even 'pop your cherry’ into that smoothie soon’ Lauren’s eyes are bulging out of her skull with excitement. Her voice is up to it’s highest pitch. All the other cheerios are staring. There is no way out of this.
She has waited for this day to come just as long as Lauren has, would Amy really mind one silly date with a boy? Karma’s pretty sure they’re not ever going to get out of the closet so why not put up a good front for the people of Hester High to witness. Amy will surely appreciate the fact that the hottest boy in school wants to slip it to Karma but Karma wants her. It will make her feel special. Plus, Karma know’s if she turns down Lauren now the entire squad will be watching her like a hawk. Leaving no room for secret Amy rendez-vous in random supply closets.
'Your so right Laurz. I’ll ditch the smoothie, my parents won’t mind. Count me in for Saturday night with Liam Booker!!!’ Karma’s faking excitement so well right now that the entire squad erupts into a fit of squeals and giggles and outfit tips start pouring in.
'Ok bitches, get into formation! We have an away game for the ladies soccer team to cheer at next week!’ Lauren’s back to be head cheerleader and all the girls fall into formation immediately.
Shane moves closer to me and nudges me with his elbow before whispering 'Good luck explaining this one to your secret girlfriend Karms’ My breath hitches in my throat as right at that moment Amy Raudenfeld, looking sexy as hell, walks past the squad in her soccer training gear sending me a secret smile that sends butterflies spiralling out of control in my chest.
Oh boy I am in deep, deep shit.
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A couple of hours later Amy and I are rolling around on my bed in the middle of an intense make out session. How did we get here? Obviously I haven’t told her about the date with Liam yet. She has me pressed down on my back on the mattress with my hands pinned above my head when I finally decide to broach the subject.
'So how was your day?’ I mumble in between kisses. Amy continues her assault on my mouth and grunts at my question.
'Ames, I’m trying to converse right now, you know, like normal human beings do every now and then?’ I push her back slightly and instantly regret it when I see the cute frown on her face perfectly sculpted face.
'You’re such a dork sometimes, you know that right?’ Amy rolls over on the bed so that we’re now lying face to face and smiles that heart warming smile of hers at me 'My day was good, I’m starting at next weeks away game, coach thinks I’ve improved a lot since I first came here a month ago’
'I’m not a dork. I’m a cheerleader. There’s a huge difference’ I can’t help my eyes from darting down to her plump kissable lips. Why would I ever want to kiss Liam Booker over her 'That’s amazing Ames, I’ll be cheering at that away game next week. I can’t wait to see you play, Lauren mentioned awhile back that Bruce thinks you’re scholarship material’
'Hopefully. I really, really like the game. Just like I really, really like the idea of the two of us having some alone time in a hotel room’ Amy’s smirking now, her hand has somehow found its way to my exposed hip and its gently tracing patterns on it. Her touch just makes her irresistible to me.
'As amazing as that sounds it’s doubtful we’ll get to spend any time together. Your sister is a big believer in hotel team squad bonding sleepovers’ Amy’s face distorts into a look of frustration and she rolls onto her back breaking eye contact.
'Step-sister Karma. She really has a knack for ruining my life’ Amy grunts dramatically from the far side of the bed now. I roll over so that my arm is wrapped around her exposed waist and I feel her fingers threading through my auburn locks.
'About Lauren…’ I start off.
'I veto the Lauren conversation, I want to know more about you. Like why is it that you won’t let me introduce myself to your parents. I know your not ready to come out right now and I get that but I could just be introduced as your friend. I feel really creepy parking my car two blocks down and climbing through your window a couple of times a week’ Amy’s tone is concerned now and I can’t help but giggle at the image of sweet, sensitive Molly and Lucas Ashcroft she must have created in her head.
'Are you saying that you want to meet my parents Amy? The only reason I haven’t introduced you is because they’re a little bit on the odd side… oh and they’re drug dealers’ I mutter into her neck waiting for her to freak out like every other person I’ve ever told that to does.
'Yes I am saying that I want to meet your parents – as for them being drug dealers, that’s irrelevant, my Mom may not be a drug dealer but she is definitely high on bitch-dope three quarters of the time’ Amy’s voice is soft and vulnerable, I feel like she’s divulging a piece of herself to me that not a lot of people get to see. My heart is beating insanely fast in my chest.
'Amy, I know that we’ve only been hooking up for less than a month but I just feel like I need to tell you that I like you’ I say averting my gase from hers as quick as possible in case she rejects me.
'I like you too Karma. This Karma, not the cheerleader Karma, the real Karma’ Amy slinks her arm around my waist and guides me back to her placing a soft lingering kiss on my swollen lips.
'Well you’re pretty much one of the only people who gets to see the real Karma, feel special’ I reply cheekily.
'I do feel special. I want you to feel special too’ Amy’s hands are roaming dangerously close to the button of my jeans and I feel like I’m about to catch fire. I feel her slip her finger into the button and I instantly go into panic mode slapping her hand away.
She pushes herself away from me and sits up on my bed looking down at me with a shocked expression. She, like everybody else, is probably assuming I’ve done 'that’ before like a million times but I’m proud to day I haven’t. I’ve been waiting for someone special and I feel like Amy could be that someone. Just not right now. Not when I have to tell her about Liam and this whole date debacle.
'Amy I’m sorry it’s just I feel like we should take things slow… if that’s ok with you?’ I mirror her position on my bed and take her hand in mine interlacing my fingers in hers. God they feel so perfect together.
'Karma I’m so sorry if I was pressuring you – it’s just that – in Cali – I thought’ Amy’s spewing out random nonsense now so I feel like now is the time to tell her about Liam.
'Ames… I have a date with Liam Booker on Saturday…’ Amy’s facial expression goes blank and she just stares at me as if she’s waiting on me to tell the punch line of the joke ’…well it’s actually a double date, with Lauren and Theo’
'Am I going insane or did you just tell me you have a date with a boy… named Liam Booker on Saturday, five minutes after telling me you really like me?’ Amy stares at me baffled. I need to play this off as no big deal so I shrug my shoulders at her and nod my head.
'Well were not exclusive are we? We haven’t even gone out on a date?’ I’m trying to sound confident right now but my voice is faltering under her intense gaze.
'Need I remind you that you’re the reason we haven’t gone on a date. You won’t even let me acknowledge your existence in school. I’m new here Karma, I spend half my time wandering around alone and you wont even look at me. Now you’re telling me you have a date on Saturday?! What the actual fuck’ Amy’s stood up from my bed now and started shuffling around the room gathering her things as quick as she possibly can.
'Amy… can you please stay right now? Your upset I know… it’s just Lauren’s my best friend and she asked me too I can’t say no to her. She might find out about us then’ I stand up from the bed and attempt to walk over to her but she takes a step back towards the window she climbs through.
'Karma I think you need to ask yourself if that’s really such a bad thing. If it is, then go on your date on Saturday, have an amazing time and never call me again. If it isn’t, then I’m willing to give us a shot if you are’ And with that she hopped back out the window she had perched herself on and climbed down. By the time I reached the window all I could see was her figure in the distance.
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'Of course she freaked out Karma. Think about it, she’s like a super hot lesbian who emerged from the closet years ago, being dragged back into it by you a supposedly 'bitchy’ cheer leader and then you go and tell her that you want to put a steal cage around said closet in the form of a boy named Liam Booker’ Shane’s really not helping me right now.
The two of us are sitting out on the bleachers in our cheer uniforms watching the girls soccer team practice for their upcoming game. Well it’s more like I dragged Shane here under the false pretence that I had intended on tanning but really I’m here to to pine over Amy and watch her from afar. Boy did she look good though, all sweaty and greek god like running up and down the field in her shorts chasing that stupid ball.
'I’ve never wanted to be a football as much as I do right now’ I’m daydreaming about Amy chasing me around the field.
'Karma, this is so cute. I’ve never seen you get this worked up about anyone. I feel like I want to cry. When do I get to meet her? Oh my gosh – Karmy! Or Arma? Which do you like better?’ Shanes prancing around the bleachers now jumping up and down with excitement as he blurts out random couple names.
'Shane. Sit the fuck down. People are watching us now’ I spit turning my head away from the field trying to act as natural as possible. Shane’s expression drops to one of annoyance as he sits down with his legs on either side of the bench I’m sitting on and stares at me.
'Karma, you like her. I can tell. I’ve never known you to spend a lunchtime away from the cheerios stalking some boy. Yet here we are, sitting outside, watching Amy kick a football around a pitch. Why dont you just march your sassy ass down there and ask your girl out on a date?’ Shane’s looking at me sympathetically now, as if I’m a wounded animal. His previously harsh eyes are glistening over with a ray of pure sympathy.
'Liam Booker, Lauren, my reputation and pure unadulterated fear of rejection’ I blurt out putting my hands in my head. I can feel Shane slink his arms over my shoulders so that no one around us can hear us.
'Why don’t you take it in baby steps? You don’t have to waltz out of the closet like I did. You can take small steps… Maybe start by introducing Amy to your parents? We both know that they’ll love that and by the way she keeps looking over here when she thinks your not looking I’d say she will too’ Shane smiles knowingly at me as my head shoots up from my hands to make eye contact with Amy. Our eyes meet and for the briefiest of moments I feel like everything is going to be ok, that whatever is going on between us is worth destroying the reputation I’ve built up over the past couple of years. Worth possibly loosing my best friend. Worth coming out to the whole school in spectacular fashion. Then she shakes her head at me before returning to her training and everything goes cold again.
'I want her to see me like no one ever has before Shane. I feel like I’m being myself for the first time in a long time when I’m with her. It’s just Lauren’s my best friend Shane…’ I mumble out the last part of the sentence and guilt starts to rise in my chest.
'Oh Karma you really need to stop living in Lauren’s shadow. We’re not fourteen anymore Karms, you don’t need her. Besides, if she really loves you she’ll support you. Please do something for yourself for once’ Shanes pleading with me now. He’s always dispproved of how Lauren treats me like some sort of sidekick. He’s constantly telling me that I deserve to star in my own life, it’s not the Lauren Cooper show.
'Amy’s not exactly speaking to me right now so maybe I’ll wait and ask her out…’ I start but I haven’t even finished my sentence before I see Shane leap up on the bench and start waving his hands around in the air like a fool at a baffled looking Amy.
'AMY RAUDENFELD, get your hot ass up here blondie’ he’s literally shrieking now. This is so embarrassing. Thank god everyone thinks it’s him who wants to speak to Amy and not me. I’m about twenty seconds off dropping under the bench and hiding.
'Karma, your in luck, she’s on her way up here right now’ Shane smirks down at me and I smack his shoulder aggresively before trying to flee down the benches when he catches my wrist and yanks me back down onto the bench. I can hear Amy’s footsteps approaching us cautiously as if she’s about to be lead into a trap.
'Hi darling, you must be Amy, I’m Shane Harvey, Hester High’s super fresh ultra gay male cheerleader’ Shane stands up from the bench again and motions for Amy to take his seat opposite me which she takes and looks in between the two of us confused 'Oh don’t be so scared hunny I know all about you and my little Karma’s top secret lesbo hook ups’
'Hey Shane, it’s uh nice to meet you. Do you always scream at people you don’t know from the bleachers? Or did I get a special case of crazy today?’ Amy asks jokingly.
'I like her already Karms, she has this whole confident yet not cocky sexy barbie gone lesbian vibe about her. It’s super hot. I now see why you have stolen my gorgeous Karma’s affections Miss Amy’ Shane’s giggling like a school girl at a twilight premiere.
I lift my head to see Amy’s cheeks have gone bright red and Shane’s standing over her triumphantly as if he’s delighted with himself to have caused Amy’s cool exterior to falter.
'See Karms, she does like you, she’s blushing like a teenage boy with his first boner’
'Shane, didn’t you have somewhere else you needed to be right now?’ I throw him an extra stern glance to emphasise how much I’m going to kick his ass if he doesn’t leave asap.
'Fine – I’ll go… I know where I’m not wanted. I expect to hear details at practice later Karma’ Shane huffs, throws his bag over his shoulder and glides down the bleachers.
The tension between Amy and I is so thick right now that I feel like calling him back just to break the ice. We haven’t spoken since she hoped out my window the other night and that was four days ago. I can feel my hands sweating and my heart racing but I still can’t make eye contact with her.
'Look Karma if you called me up here to let me down easy you’re not doing a very good job at it. It’s fine, I get it’ Amy’s standing up from the her seat on the bleacher now to walk away from me so I grab her wrist quickly pulling her back down into her seat and look at her for the first time.
She is literally the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my entire life. How can someone be so effortlessly sexy? Her dirty blonde hair is in a messy ponytail cascading down her back, her make up less face is covered in sweat and her attire is less than fashionable. Yet I still feel the need to be close to her, I’m still fighting off every urge in my body that’s telling me to lean over and kiss her right now.
'Are you just going to stare at me all day? I’m training out there in the burning Texas sun Karma, I’m sorry if I’m not up to your standard right now’ Amy’s trying to sound confident but I can hear the cracks in her voice as her insecurities rear their ugly heads in her words.
'I’m staring because I think you look breathtakingly beautiful’ I whisper lifting her chin up to meet my gaze. Her green eyes lighten up at my comment and I can’t help but smile.
'Amy, I really like you. This is all completely uncharted territory for me. I just… I don’t know if I’m ready to come out yet… with Lauren and the squad… so I’m hoping that maybe you’ll give me a bit of time. Take it slow. I don’t really know what I’m doing at the moment but I do know that I want to get to know you better, spend time with you outside of school’ I feel a moment of bravery take over me so I slip my hand into hers and interlace our fingers waiting for her response.
'How slow? Slow enough for you to hook up with me and that douche bag Liam Booker at the same time? I’m not going to sit back comfortably and watch the girl that I’m…wait, what exactly are we even doing?’
'Kissing, spending time together, do we need to label it?’
'There’s a girl down there on the pitch called Ivy, I don’t know if you know her, who asked me out before practice Karma. If we’re not labelling it, then I’m assuming it’s perfectly ok with you if I say yes?’
'What. No. You cant. How about we say that were secretly dating? Exclusively’
'No date with Liam Booker then?’
'Look Amy I have to go on that date with Liam on Saturday or the entire squad will be watching my every move. You told me that you understand that I need time. Going on one stupid date with Liam Booker gives me all the time I need, all the time we need. Can you please try to understand that?’
'I do understand that Karma. How about I go out with Ivy on Saturday night to see a movie or something while your on you’re date with Liam? That way I wont be spending the evening at home alone staring at the clock waiting for you to text me again’
'Shitty deal. But a deal. Can we kiss on it?’
'No. We can kiss when you decide to 'exclusively secretly date me’. Or whatever the hell you’re calling it’
'Can you come over to my house later? To hang out… no kissing involved, I promise’
'I have late night practice this week for our away game next week. Coach will kill me if I miss it’ Amy must have noticed the frown on my face immediately so she chimed in 'I can call you though, when I get home, if that’s not weird?’
'That’s perfect.’ I really didn’t care as long as I got to speak to her this evening. That’s how much of a looser I’ve become for this girl.
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Over the next couple of days things seemed to be looking up. The squad were kept happy with the news that Lauren and I would be going on a double date with the schools hottest boys. Amy was kept happy with the promise that I was going to bring her over to my house on Sunday, after my date with Liam to meet my parents and hang out. The week flew by between cheer practice, school, secret hang outs with Amy – no kissing though, phone calls with Amy, gossiping with Shane and daydreaming about Amy.
Finally it was Saturday evening and I’m standing outside the Cooper household like I’ve done a million times before about to go in and start getting ready for my date with Liam. 'A girl can’t get ready by herself, she needs the help of her best friend, we’ve never gotten ready for dates separately Karma, why now? ’ that’s what Lauren’s response to me asking if I could get ready in my own house was. Why now? Hmm… lets see… maybe it’s because I’m secretly hooking up with your step sister who may think it’s a little bit rude that I’m getting ready for my date with a boy in her house. It’s weird. But it’s for Lauren. So here I am like some sort of idiot ringing her doorbell.
I hear footsteps trudging down the stairs and Lauren swings open the door not even greeting me looking exceptionally flustered. Her bleach blonde hair is in rollers on top of her head and her make up is non existant.
'Wow, you look…’
'Like Medusa on crack’ chimed in a voice I recognised immediately. I felt a pair of hands gently move me to the side of the doorway and a half naked, covered in sweat Amy appeared in front of me. She had obviously been jogging judging by the running shoes, short shorts and black sports bra. My eyes couldn’t help themselves from wandering down to her toned abs covered in sweat. Well it’s official, I’m one hundred percent gay or atleast Amy-sexual.
'Bite me. Don’t you have a date with that slut Ivy this evening? You’re stinking up the foyer by the way’ Lauren’s vein is popping out of her forehead.
'I cancelled it. Turns out I like someone else’ Amy’s head rose up from her shoes and she smiled softly over at me before winking when Lauren wasn’t looking. I want nothing more than to shove past Lauren right now and jump her bones in the foyer of the Cooper household.
'Well stay out of our bathroom. Karma and I are getting ready for our date in there. Oh my god Karma, we only have three hours until they’re here’ Amy snorts and Lauren grabs me by my wrist and draggs me up the stairs to her bedroom where she starts searching through her closet. I wonder if she’ll find me in there.
A good two and a half hours, five different outfits, buckets of make up, a close call with a curling iron and one emotional breakdown later we’re both ready and waiting for the boys to come pick us up in Lauren’s room.
'I need to pee, ill be back in a minute’ I state standing up and heading over to the bathroom. I close the door to the bathroom behind me and nearly skull myself on the wet floor. Amy must have showered. I lock the bathroom door on Lauren’s side and knock on the side which leads into Amy’s room.
'It’s my bathroom too Lauren, I needed to shower’ I hear her yell from the other side of the door. She trudges over prepared for a fight with her step sister and opens the door to find me standing there grinning.
'Wow. Karma. You look… just…. Wow’ I’m dressed in a short red summer dress that falls off my shoulders delicately so that my ivory skin is highlighted. My heels are brown wedges, my hair is curled and my make up is light. I feel sexy. And judging by Amy’s reaction I am sexy.
'Are you sure you still want to have that no kissing rule?’ Amy doesn’t even respond before she pushes me back into the bathroom and pins me against the door that leads into Laurens room attacking my mouth with hot, wet kisses. I feel her tongue pushing it’s way into my mouth in a way that just causes me to moan. God I want her so bad right now. I feel her smile at my moan and she tugs on my bottom lip with her teeth. I decide that it’s my turn to get her moaning so I flip us around so that it’s her back against the door now. I start trailing kisses down her neck and sucking on her pulse point making sure that I leave a mark. I want her to look in the mirror later and remember the pleasure I’m giving her right now. My hands trail underneath her loose shirt and I tug it over her head so that I’m free to run my hands over her sexy toned abbs. I squeal a little when Amy picks me up from the wall and marches us into her bedroom throwing me down on the bed before climbing on top of me.
'You are so unbelievably sexy Karma Ashcroft’ her voice is husky and I can feel her playing with the bottom of my dress in between her fingers. I flip us over and press my left thigh into her centre causing her to elicit the sexiest moan I have ever head in my entire life. I look down at her, lust seeping out of every pore of her body, and place one last chaste kiss on her swollen lips before standing up and fixing myself in the mirror.
'Well I’m going to need a very long cold shower’ Amy’s says from her bed, propping herself up on her elbows.
'You can’t expect me to keep my hands to myself when you walked into the foyer half naked earlier now can you?’ I reply cheekily winking at her.
'So what time do you want me to come over at tomorrow?’ Amy’s grinning like a child at Christmas from her bed.
'Hmm… how about twenty past never? My parents, they’re so weird Amy… I don’t know why on gods earth you want to meet them’ I say crawling up her placing kisses on her exposed navel on the way up her 'You could sneak in the window again… and we could continue this… in private… with my parents downstairs… happily oblivious’ I kiss her on her lips to finish my speech and notice the humongous frown on her face.
'Normal people introduce the girls or boys they’re seeing to their parents Karma. I want at least one aspect of this 'hook up’ to be normal’ Amy responds letting out a frustrated sigh. I feel like we should talk about what she just said but the doorbell rings which takes me out of my lovely Amy world. I lean down to kiss her on the lips goodbye but she turns her head so my lips meet her cheek. Hurt is the only emotion I can see on Amy’s face as I hop up onto my feet and head towards the bathroom.
'Look Amy…’ I start off.
'Just go Karma, have fun on your date with your boyfriend’ she interrupts me and rolls over on her bed burying her head into her pillows to signal the end of the conversation. I can feel the tears forming in the back of my eyes, I tilt my head up so that they don’t fall down my face.
'Amy… I wish I could stay and talk about this…’ My voice is breaking as I’m speaking.
'But you cant Karma. So please just go…’ Amy sounds as if she’s crying and it’s breaking my heartt to walk away from her but I know I have to right now so I slip into the bathroom.
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The date is going exactly as I imagined it to be, perfect. Liam has been so sweet, caring and the perfect gentleman the entire night. He’s opened every door for me, held my hand during the scary parts of the movie, payed for everything and asked me all kinds of questions about myself that show he’s trying to get to know me. So why don’t I feel anything for him? Why is the blonde girl with the piercing green eyes the only thing that’s going through my mind when he’s leaning in to kiss me? I’ve dreamt about this moment ever since I was a little girl, the moment the most popular boy in school leans over to kiss me, simple Karma Ashcroft. We’re sitting in his car outside my parents house, Lauren and Theo are sitting the back macking on each other, like they have been for the entire night. Of course he thinks the only natural thing to do right now is lean over and kiss me too. His lips finally meet mine and my heart is pounding out of my chest. There’s no spark. The spark that I’ve gotten so used to from kissing Amy is just completely absent. I feel sick now thinking about how this will make Amy feel. So I pull away from Liams lips just as he’s attempting to shove his tongue into my throat.
'Mmm… I have a curfew so I’m going to head in, my parents are probably worried about me’ I shoot out of the car quicker than a bolt of lightening and bolt towards my front door, sending Liam a small smile before closing the front door and resting my back against it. I let out a deep breath I feel like I’ve been holding since I left Amy’s bedroom earlier tonight.
'Karma dear, how was your date?’ My mom stands in the hallway smiling down at me with that face that says she knows something I don’t. I need to tell her now that I’m bringing Amy over tomorrow so she can let out all her freakishness tonight.
'Mom, I like a girl, her names Amy, I’m going to bring her over tomorrow afternoon to meet you and dad, if that’s ok with you?’ My mom’s face lights up like I just told her I’ve been accepted into Harvard University. I knew that she’d be happy about me being gay. I just wasn’t expecting her to be this happy.
'Oh Karma dear this is wonderful news, I knew that your cosmic flow was heading in a whole new fruitful direction this morning. I read it in your fathers tea this morning’ I face palmed myself straight away. They are so weird. I hope they at least act somewhat normal tomorrow in front of Amy.
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Today is the day. After over a month of sneaking around, Amy will finally walk through my front door and meet my parents. I hear the front doorbell ring, hoping up from my bed as fast as I can to beat my parents to the front door. My nervousness has nearly been over shadowed by their excitement to finally meet someone that I’m seeing, even more so now that they know it’s a girl.
By the time I’m halfway down the stairs my Mom is opening the front door with my dad standing behind her like they’re some sort of a fucking lesbian holiday greeting card.
'Hi Mr and Mrs Ashcroft, I’m Amy, Karma’s uh… friend’ Amy stutters out in this totally adorable nervous way. I can’t help but giggle to myself as I descend the last few steps of the stairs. She has no idea how excited they are to meet her. She’s probably expecting them to be completely homophobic nut job drug dealers from what I’ve told her.
'Hi Amy, you’re such a beatiful girl, our little Karmakins is so lucky to have gotten the attention of such as beautiful girl like you. I bet that you have an amazing aura, you must let me read your tea leaves for you sometime darling’ Amy’s face is priceless. Almost so priceless that it distracts me from the issue at hand, my parents attacking her.
'Amy, I’m Lucas, can I just say Karmakins is one mighty lover, she gets that from me. Her mother is more of a gentle soul’ Oh my god. I have got to stop them now.
'Hey guys, I think I’ll just take Amy upstairs to my room until dinner is ready… I need to show her my… eh… new cactus you got me last week. Amy loves plants’ I say tugging Amy’s wrist dragging her up the stairs. When I finally make it to my room I flop myself down on my bed looking up at a grinning from ear to ear Amy.
'So you’re a mighty lover?’ Amy states flopping down on the bed beside me.
'That’s really all that you got from that…’ I turn my head so I can look into her eyes, the eyes I’ve missed so much over the past couple of hours 'you’re such a horndog’
'Only for you at the moment. Speaking of which, how was your date last night?’ Amy turns her head away from me like she actually doesn’t want to hear about it.
'It sucked’ I state nonchalantly. Amy turns her head and looks at with a puzzled expression.
'Why? I thought he was the guy of your dreams and all that, Lauren thinks you two are going to be Hester High’s newest cutest power couple’ Amy spits out the frown on her face increasing in size.
'I like someone else… alot’ I roll over so that our lips are inches apart. Amy’s breath hitches in her throat. I rest my forehead against hers and nuzzles our noses together before placing a hard kiss on her lips, a kiss I hope conveys to her how much I want her and nobody else 'It’s definitely not Liam Booker’
We’ve been rolling around on my bed now for the past hour or so in the midst of a hot make out session. My fingers loop underneath the hem of her shirt which she quickly lifts off her head and tosses to the far side of the room. I flip us over so that she’s lying underneath me and I’m straddling her lap. My eyes wander over Amy’s naked torso taking a minute to appreciate the view underneath me. My gaze is broken when I feel her hands rubbing up my thighs soothingly. I lean down and kiss the top of her exposed breast that’s not covered by her black bra while taking her other boob in my hand and squeezing it roughly over her bra. Amy moans and flips us over kissing, biting and sucking down my neck slowly and sensually. My senses feel like they’re heightening under every soft touch of her hands. I lean forward tugging at the button on my jeans when I feel Amy’s soft hands on mine.
'Hey Karms… slow down. Maybe we should just talk for awhile?’ Amy’s face is concerned and I hate her for it. She looks at me with this knowing expression that I’m not ready to give myself to her completely yet. She sits up from the bed and walks over to the far side of my bedroom in search of her shirt before tossing it back over her head jumping back down on the bed beside me.
'If you were a boy you would have let me have my way with you right here and now’ I mumble, pouting at her and snuggling into her side.
'Well last time I checked I’m not a boy, unless… do you think I’ve been buying the wrong underwear for years now? The scandal!’ Amy lifts up her shirt and looks down at her bra in a melodramatic fashion. I slap her shoulder playfully and loop one of my arms around her waist. Her hand finds it’s way to my hip and draws circles on my bare skin. God it feels so good.
'How about we play five questions?’ I ask absent-mindedly.
'Sure, you ask first’ She replies happily.
'Ok Raudenfeld, first one is always easy. Why soccer?’
'My dad and I used to play every Sunday morning in the park in Cali and I guess I just never gave it up. I feel connected to him somehow when I’m playing now and well since he’s obviously not around I guess it’s just my way of compartmentalising that he isn’t’
'Where is he?’
'Veto. It’s my turn. Why cheerleading? You are so not the bitchy cheerleader type outside of school, why are you acting like it in school?’
'I guess I’ve never really felt like I fit in, I mean I’ve been a loner hippie chick my entire life, then I get to freshman year and this girl comes up to me and actually wants to be my friend. She offers me a world where I’m popular, respected, cool and actually get invited to parties, what’s the only price, wave pom poms around in the air and act cool in school, it’s so much easier for me to do that then to sit in the corner by myself being who I really am. No one wants to know the hippie chick, everyone wants to know the cheeleader! I mean would you of ever noticed me if I was a hippie chick?’
'Yes, the first time I ever noticed you was when I was visiting here with my mom two summers ago. I was riding Laurens bike around the park a couple of blokes from here and I saw you sitting under a tree strumming a guitar and writing in a little notebook. I thought you were the most amazingly beautiful girl I had ever seen… to be honest, when I first moved here a month ago, I went running around the park hoping that I’d bump into that hippie chick’
My face is bright red right now. Can this girl get any more perfect? What is she doing to me?
'Why do you let Lauren boss you around so much?’
'She doesn’t boss me around Amy she’s my best friend. She may be a little bit nasty sometimes but she’s the only friend I’ve ever had who will literally kick someone’s ass for me. I’m weak, it’s pathetic but I need that. I need Lauren. Why do you and Lauren not get along?’
'We have nothing in common’ Amy states matter of factly.
'Bullshit, spill. Or ill just casually ask her school tomorrow’ I rise up from her grip and glare down at her.
'She’s the daughter my mother never had. There I said it. I really don’t want to talk about that though Karma… can we please talk about something else?’ Amy’s blurts out. I can tell that I shouldn’t push her right now.
'What do you want to do in University?’
'Pre-med. I’d like my major to be psychology. I’m hoping to get into Duke on a soccer scholarship. What about you?’ Amy’s expression is of pure determination. The kind of determination that makes it obvious to the rest of us that she is going to make it to Duke.
'Teaching hopefully, I love music so I would love to be a music teacher. I don’t know if i’ll get in anywhere though… I’ve spent so much time focusing on cheerleading and being popular that my grades may have slipped a little bit…and by little I mean a lot’ I look away from her big green eyes and feel her place a soft kiss on my cheek to soothe me.
'Last question… the pressures on… I’ll let you go first’ she smirks at me gesturing for me to go first chivalrously.
'Have you ever been in love?’ I’m prying now.
'I thought I was in love with my ex girlfriend Reagan in Cali. Now I’m not so sure…’ Amy says her face turning a bright shade of red.
'Why are you not so sure?’ I ask tracing invisible patterns on her exposed stomach.
'I’ve never felt the way I feel when I’m with you Karma… It sucks because it’s so complicated with you not being out and Lauren and school but I like you more than I’ve ever liked any other girl’ Amy looks up at me with an expression of pure adoration.
'I like you more than I’ve ever liked anyone before too’ I say and I surprise myself with how much I mean it.
'My final question, will you go on a proper date with me next weekend? Like outside, ill pick you up, you wear a nice outfit, we go do something stupid like bowling or fishing, then I get to drop you off and maybe kiss you goodnight’ Amy looks at me with this hopeful expression.
'Yes.’ A huge grin spreads across both our faces 'How do you feel about organic tofu by the way? My parents are about to rock your donut loving world with there weird food and even weirder questions’ I ask dragging her up from the bed and leading her out of my bedroom towards the stairs.
'I’m actually a big fan of organic tofu and weird questions…’
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The next couple of days flew by, Amy and I hung out nearly every evening - only breaking if she had training and I have to say I’ve never been happier than I am when I’m with her. She makes me feel like the most special person in the world and I love it. My parents loved her, they’ve been pestering me all week to invite her to my gammys eighty-eighth birthday in a couple of weeks in Orlando but I’m scared that it’s too soon for me to ask her something like that. I mean we’re technically still just 'hooking up’ at the moment. I can tell Amy is eager to take our relationship to the next level but I’m scared to say yes to that. What if she decides she doesn’t like me as a girlfirend? I’ve never been anyone’s girlfriend before, I don’t even know how that works. It’s not like I can kiss her or hold her hand in public. What is the point of labelling it if it wont even change anything.
Lauren is becoming gradually more suspicious of me. I’ve been late to a couple of cheer practices due to my extra curricular activities with Amy i.e. making out in the back seat of her car. Everytime I’m late Lauren gives me this knowing look, like she knows I’ve been up to something I shouldn’t be. She keeps asking me about Liam and I have no clue what to say other than 'I haven’t heard from him since our date’ which is a complete lie since he has been blowing up my phone constantly asking me out again. I can’t let him down without arousing more suspicion and to be honest I dont care what Shane says, I’m so happy to remain in my closet as long as Amy’s in there with me.
Tonight was the away girls soccer game which the squad was cheering at. The team won the game by 3-1. Amy was given most valued player at the end of the match and I could see the scouts swarming around the school coach asking questions about her. The only downfall to be in a secret friends with benefits relationship is the inability to go up to ones friend and kiss them whenever one wants too. Such as when Amy was standing on the pitch earlier tonight at the end of the match goofily smiling over at me with delight. She clearly wanted to celebrate with me and I desperately want to celebrate with her. If it wasn’t for this stupid squad bonding sleepover I would walk down the hotel corridor and creep into Amy’s room for a late night cuddle. Fuck my closeted life.
'Karma, go now. Lauren’s throwing a hissy fit at Betty for messing up the pyramid. If you leave now, she won’t notice’ Shane Harvey, my loyal best friend stood at the door to my hotel room waving me out.
'She will notice Shane… she’s watching me like a hawk lately. She can tell some things up’ I mumble disappointedly.
'I’ll cover for you Karma. Trust me. Amy just won a big game she’s bound to want to celebrate. You my dear are one sexy mamma. If you put the two together you create a women out of you’ my face flushed bright pink. Shit. Why didn’t I think of that? Tonight is the perfect opportunity for me to give myself to Amy in a way I’ve never given myself to anyone before.
'We’re technically not even together Shane. I can’t give myself to her like that’ panic mode sets in for me.
'Which one of you is holding the two of you back from being together? You cant hold onto it forever Karma. If you can tell me you haven’t thought about sexy time with Amy then don’t go down to her room, come join me at the cheerio sleepover and we’ll braid hair and listen to Lauren bitch about Theo’ Shane states with a knowing smirk and a hand on his hip.
'Your the best friend ever Shane’ I say as I barge past him, I’m halfway down the hall when I decide to run back and kiss him on the cheek. I move down the hallway to the room Amy texted me earlier that she’s staying in.
I knock on the door and Amy opens it with a towel rapped around her slim figure. If I ever had any doubts about what I’m about to do they vanished the second I saw Amy standing there in front of me so effortlessly perfect.
'Karma, hey! I thought you had to go to some cheerleader sleepover or something?’ she opens the with a smile on her face.
'Is your room-mate here?’ I ask quietly.
'No, Ivy’s my room-mate and I’m pretty sure I saw her making flirty eyes at the opposing team goalkeeper so it’s just little old me here. I mean who has time to flirt in the middle of a quarter final football match!? Want to come in and watch a movie or something?’ she says opening the door a little further gesturing for me to come in.
I walk into the room and close the door behind me. Amy walks over to her bag on the bed and starts searching for pjs to wear so I quickly walk up behind her and slide my arms around her waist kissing her neck sweetly. She shivers a little before turning around in my arms and kissing me softly on my eagerly waiting lips.
'You were amazing in that game tonight Ames… all I was thinking about the entire match is how lucky I am to get to be with you’ I whisper huskily in her ear.
'What are you doing Karma?’ she mutters out flustered between my heated kisses.
'I want you so bad right now Amy. I want to feel you inside of me’ Amy’s eyes light up with lust and pure desire as I gently tug the towel from around her and let it drop to the floor leaving her standing in front of me completely naked.
My eyes trail down her wet body and I instantly feel a heat between my thighs. I push her back on the bed and climb on top of her pressing my leg in between her legs to hear that oh so sexy moan again. I lean down and take her nipple in my mouth using my other hand to roughly squeeze her other breast causing her to moan loudly. Amy reaches up and pulls my shirt over my head and leans up to attack my chest with hot,wet, open mouthed kisses. She unhooks my bra in one quick swoosh, I feel her mouth latch on to my nipple and I grind down further into her.
It’s not long after that I’m lying completely naked underneath her and she’s looking at me like I’m an angel sent down to her from heaven. I’ve never felt as special as I do when I’m under Amy’s intense gaze. I feel her hand wandering down to my centre and squeal a little when her finger barely touches my entrance.
'Are you a virgin?’ Amy asks me with the most concerned look on her face. I nod my head in response feeling my cheeks go pink 'Hey don’t be embarrassed baby… that’s amazing…ill go slow, I promise’
I feel Amy’s finger push into me a little bit more and I wince in pain latching my hands around her back trying to pull her closer into me. I kiss her neck softly signalling for her to continue what she’s doing so she pushes her finger into me further, this time I feel a mixture of pain and pleasure.
'Please Amy… fuck me… I need to feel you’ and with that she adds a second finger and once she feels I’m comfortable she starts pumping her fingers in and out of me whilst kissing me tenderly. I’m so close to the edge when I feel her pull her fingers out and watch her blonde head disappear in between my thighs.
Within a couple of minutes of her sucking, licking and biting my centre I’m pushing her face further in between my thighs as I have my first ever mind blowing orgasm for the first time in my life.
Amy cleans me up a bit with her mouth before crawling up beside me and kissing me on the lips so I can taste myself on her tongue. Everything about this moment is insanely erotic. I’m still breathing heavily when she opens her arm for me to snuggle into her.
I bury my head into her neck and kiss her softly 'Amy… that was amazing’ I whisper, my voice still hoarse.
'You’re amazing Karma’ Amy smiles fondly at me before kissing the top of my head.
'Can I stay? If it’s too weird or uncomfortable for you…’ I’m rambling now. Amy kisses me on my lips to shut me up.
'I want you to stay Karma’ Amy says as she intertwines our fingers underneath the sheets.
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'Karma fucking Ashcroft’ I wake up to a voice ringing throughout the room that I don’t recognise straight away. I reach my hand out to feel Amy beside me but my hand flops out on the empty bed beside me.
'Your girlfriends in the shower cheerleader. Banging your best friends sister. I didn’t think you had it in you’ the voice rings out again. Shit. What the fuck.
I sit up in the bed and look around the room to see Ivy standing in last nights dress with her heels in her hand and a smug smile on her face. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuck. I’m in so much shit now. I hop out of the bed scrambling around the room looking for something to wear back to my room. I settle on stealing Amy’s tracksuit bottoms and hoody throwing them over myself quickly. Ivy’s starts chuckling at me from the corner of the room.
'Shut up Ivy’ I mumble angrily before heading for the hotel room door.
'Jeez someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Are you not even going to wait and say goodbye to your girlfriend? I’m sure that cheer bitch you call a best friend is dying to know if her sisters a better shag than Liam Booker’ She’s fucking with me now. I stop with my hand on the door knob, anger bubbling inside me, this girl is threatening to fuck up my reputation.
'Back off Ivy she’s not my fucking girlfriend’ I scream at her. Amy emerges from the bathroom just in time to hear me yelling like a lunatic in her hotel room. Why the fuck did she not wake me up? Now everything is fucking ruined. Maybe she meant for this to fucking happen. I bet this is some sort of sick fucking revenge on Lauren. Bang her best friend and tell everyone about it. I’m seething with anger right now.
'Karma… relax, Ivy wont say anything to anyone about us’ Amy glares at Ivy and steps closer to me.
'There is no us Amy. There never will be. How are you too stupid to fucking see that? I’m not your fucking girlfriend so just back off’ I open the door and slam it shut before she can even say anything else.
I run down the corridor to Shane’s room and knock repeatedly until he answers looking extremely baffled. I throw myself into his open arms and let the sobs I’ve been choking back unleash themselves.
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I regret everything. That’s the only emotion I’m feeling right now. A couple of weeks have passed by since the hotel room incident and I’m starting to think I may have overreacted a little bit. Amy kept her word and no one ever found out what happened between us that night, not even with Ivy the school slut knowing. Every time I pass Ivy in the corridor she just smirks at me, a smirk that makes me want to slap her stupid fucking slutty face. To be honest I prefer when she walks by me to when Amy does, she won’t even look at me and to I can’t blame her. I freaked the fuck out in spectacular fashion and ruined the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time. I knew it the moment I slammed that hotel door in Amy’s confused face. I’ve been trying to apologise to her for weeks now but she just avoids me or mutters 'I’m not your fucking girlfriend’ before walking away from me.
On the upside Lauren is delighted that I seem to be back to my perfect cheerleader self. I haven’t been late to practice, I’m up to date on all the latest gossip, the cheerios are back to looking at me like Lauren’s wicked henchman and Liam Booker is now eating lunch with us in the cafeteria. My perfect little image is back in tact. My heart however feels like a ton of bricks have been dropped on top of it. I miss Amy. I miss not being able to talk to her, touch her, kiss her and spend time with her. I guess this is what it feels like to be heartbroken. I never really understood all the songs until now. I can’t sleep, eat or think straight without her. My whole world feels like something is missing from it, I know it’s Amy. Not a moment passes by during the day where I don’t think think about her. I’m miserable without her.
'So guess what happened last night at dinner?’ Lauren sits down at the cafeteria table looking as excited as ever.
'What?’ I say twirling my food around on my fork. Liam has his arm wrapped around my shoulders and I want nothing more than to slap it away.
'The step monster sister’s father showed up. Like her real father. Farrah blew a casket and Amy just ran up to her room and locked the door like a child. I’m pretty sure I heard her crying the entire night. Her eyes were all bloodshot this morning’ The squad let out a round of giggles and I want to punch something. My heart is racing in my chest. Amy’s absentee dad showed up last night. She has no one to talk too. I need to be there for her.
'That’s rough, you’re step sisters smoking by the way. I’d do her’ Liam chimes in like the imbecile he is. I mean who the fuck calls a girl in emotional turmoil sexy, when he has his arm around another girl. What the fuck like. That’s it. I can’t deal with this shit right now.
'You’re all really fucking insensitive’ I spit as I stand up from the table glaring at them all.
'Don’t get your pom pom’s in a twist Karma, sit back down and stop being such a fucking drama Queen’ Lauren’s glaring at me now, she’s small but I still find her ridiculously intimidating. I nearly sit back down when I see Ivy in the distance smugly looking over at me again. Fuck that bitch I’m going to see my girl.
I stick my finger up to a horrified looking Lauren and storm out of the cafeteria heading straight for the football pitches. If I know Amy this is going to be where she is when she’s upset. I look around the pitch frantically for her, it’s completely deserted. I turn around to leave when I hear a muffled sob coming from underneath the bleachers. Amy.
I climb underneath the bleachers making sure to hold down the skirt part of my cheer uniform from on lookers walking around. My heart breaks all over again when I see Amy sitting on the ground sobbing to herself. Her knee’s are tucked up into her chest and her head is buried in her hands.
'Amy’ I hesitantly take a seat opposite her on the ground. I want to sit beside her but I know she probably doesn’t want that at all right now.
'Now is really not a good time Karma. Can you please leave me the fuck alone?’ Amy chokes out between sobs.
'No I cant Amy, Lauren told me about your dad. Do you want to talk about it?’ I ask tentatively.
'Fuck you Karma. You’re the one who made it pretty fucking clear to me that you’re not my fucking girlfriend so stop acting like you are now’ Amy lifts her head out of her hands and glares at me. I can tell she’s angry but I can also see the hurt behind her eyes.
'Amy I’m trying to be your friend here. Let me help you. Talk to me’ I’m pleading with her now. I’m leaning up on my knees, I place my hand on both of Amy’s thighs and a surge of electricity runs through me. Her eyes change from anger and pain to lust and desire almost instantly.
She pushes me back on the ground and climbs on top of me kissing me roughly. God I missed her lips on mine. I feel her bite my bottom lip roughly and a sexual beast wakes up in me. I flip us over so I’m lying over her and start sucking, biting and licking my way down her neck ensuring that I mark her everywhere I possibly can. My hand reaches down to the button of her jeans which I make quick work opening. She growls when I bring my lips back up to hers and shove my tongue inside her mouth. Our tongues fight for dominance and I palm her breast roughly over her shirt eliciting more moans from her beautiful mouth. I press my palm down on her centre above her underwear and Amy’s hands rise up to her head pressing her palms against her forehead in pure pleasure.
'Fuck me Karma… please fuck me’ Amy’s begging in between pants. I can’t really belive my ears. Everything she’s saying just turns me on even more.
I slip my hand under the waist band of her underwear and roll my fingers over her sensitive bundle of nerves. The more Amy moans the more I realise she’s not crying any more which urges me on. I move my head down pushing her low cut shirt to the side and pulling her bra down so I can suck, bite and nibble on her nipple.
Right as she lets out another moan I slip my index finger into her and start pumping it in and out.
'Harder, please Karma harder’ my eyes literally roll back in my head at the noise of her panting. I slip another finger in and shove my fingers in deeper.
'look at me Amy. I want to see you cum under me’ I have no idea where my new-found confidence is coming from but Amy grabs hold of my face and stares into my eyes.
I can feel Amy’s close, my fingers are getting tired so I curl them inside her and press my palm against her bundle of nerves sending her over the edge. Watching her cum sends me over the edge too so I roll over and try to catch my breath.
There’s silence for a couple of minutes before I hear Amy shuffling around beside me and see her buttoning up her jeans. She stands up and looks down at me lying there breathless with a blank expression.
'Thanks’ Amy states and my heart breaks. Is she really just going to leave me here underneath the bleachers after having mind blowing angry sex.
'Wait, Amy, what does this make us?’ I ask still trying to catch my breath.
'Fuck buddies Karma, just like you’ve always wanted it’ Amy states nonchalantly shrugging her shoulders before walking away.
The only problem is I don’t want that any more. I want to be her girlfriend. I’m falling in love with her. I’m finally willing to risk it all.
Well guys what do you think? I’ll write a part two if people like it.