Over the past few months I'm sure you've noticed that I've posted less and less. As is to be expected, one of the main reasons is because of the cutest little addition to our family. Being a Mom to Henry has become my number one priority. Not to mention that seeing B with Henry has made me fall in love with him all over again and I am enjoying this new growth in our relationship. So when I'm not at work, I only want to be with them. To laugh with them, and cuddle with them, and dream about the future with them.
The other reason is because I feel lost. I don't know what I want from this blog anymore. In August I'll have been at this Internet address for three years. When I started I was in SUCH a different place. This blog has seen me struggle with finding a new job, get engaged, find a new job, get married, and have a baby. That's a lot of growth in three years, and I'm now a completely different person. At the time I started this blog I was unsettled. I was unhappy in many ways. And now I feel so fulfilled in every aspect of my life. I am happy, the happiest I could ever imagine being. Every day I feel lucky for what I have. That wasn't the case three years ago.
When I started this blog, my obsession was fashion. It's all I wanted to write about, or talk about. It's the only thing I thought I could do in my professional life. Turns out, my new obsession is life. Living. I'm living every day on purpose. So now when I sit down to write at this address, I don't often find myself wanting to talk about fashion. I just want to talk, and write, and tell you what's in my head, or what's on my heart. Thing is, I love to write. I always have. I originally went to school for journalism before switching my major to interior design, then psychology, then finally settling on fashion. I still dream of owning my own magazine. But now that dream includes more than just styling a shoot. It involves getting to write real stories, to design the graphics for each page, to inspire. This blog has made me realize how much I love to create- in so many different ways.
I've thought numerous times about re-branding this blog. Starting clean and fresh. Coming Unstitched was just a random name that came to me when I started this blog because it was related to fashion, and it was about me opening myself up to you. But now, I'm not so sure that it's me anymore. Or that it's the me that I want to be.
I also feel a bit confused on what to share. My most popular posts were once my personal style posts. No matter how awkward I felt taking outfit photos, you guys always loved them. But now, my most popular posts are usually my life posts- the ones about Henry, or the ones where I'm just sharing a little about what we've been up to. So the question becomes, do I steer this blog in that direction and risk losing those of you who come here for the fashion? On the flipside, if I'm not putting my whole heart into the fashion posts, is there really a point in posting them? I'd say no to that. My goal from the beginning has always been to post what I am most passionate about, and if you guys liked it, that was just a (huge) bonus. But you guys have made this blog what it is, and have given me the opportunities that I've been given. So I want to continue to post things that make you want to come back here.
I still love fashion. I really do. And I have a closet full of clothes that would prove that. But I also love design. I love graphics. I love life stories. I love telling you about my life as a mom. I love photography. I love just talking to you about real stuff. And I just love writing. But what do I do with that? Do I start over? If I did, would you follow me there?
At this point, I'm rambling. But I needed to explain to you what is going on lately. I want to be upfront and honest with you. I want to tell you that I'm having a hard time finding my passion for this space that I once had. And I want to tell you where my head is at, in case I do decide it's time to start over. I want to hear your thoughts, your opinions. I always value what you have to say.
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