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MY LOFT 89 EXPERIENCE
Okay so where do I even BEGIN?! I was minding my own bUSINESS, rocking out to taylor, doin my THANG okay. First let me say our seats were the farthest right to the stage you could get (there was no section after it) AND we were at the very top row. Basically, we had the highest seats in the entire arena. OKAY ANYWAY then (Taylor was on her AHYDTWS speech I believe? or right before it IDR IT’S A BLUR) out of the corner of my eye behind me I thought I saw Mama Swift. And I did!!!!! I turn around and I just GASP out of amazement because she was standing right in front of me. I soon realize she is with a few other members of her team. I said “OH MY GOD.” and then I asked “can I hug you?!” She nodded so I hugged her. And I was just… I was so in shock. THEN ….. GET THIS. SHE TOLD ME “TAYLOR SAW YOUR POST. SHE WANTS TO MEET YOU.” and those words coming out of her mouth made me ….. I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN. IT WAS SO CRAZY. NOT do you want loft? or anything like that. she said TAYLOR. WANTS. TO MEET YOU. ME???? TAYLOR SWIFT WANTED TO MEET ME. I screamed “NO” and she said “yeah!” and i hugged her and then she gave me the goLDEN TICKET. Mama Swift then put the bracelet on my wrist (she had a hard time getting it on lol) and she said “I’m so happy you were standing, that way we could see you!” and I hugged her a few more times and screamed a lot more times. She said she would see me later. And…. I just. I WENT BANANAS. I, LITTLE TINY SPEC OF THE EARTH ANTHONY, WAS GOING TO MEET GODDESS OF THE WORLD TAYLOR ALSION SWIFT?????? gotta go.
okay so of course I got right back into the concert (jk not really bc I was freaking out but) and danced my little booty off as I always do. Let me just tell you how HARD I went during out of the woods. @taylor if u readin this: the (2nd) OOTW bridge is honestly me life. thanks for it girl. also wait let me just mention something (that i didn’t realize until AFTER the show) but during one of her speeches she was talking about how she loved that we were honest with her online. aND I JUST CAN’T HELP BUT THINK she was talking about me and the long post i made about my accident (i’m sure most of u know, but b4 u ask, i’m talking about this post). SO THAT JUST MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY :) :)
OKAY ANWAY AFTER THE CONCERT WE MET AT THE SECTION THE TICKET TOLD US TO and blah blah we got in line sat down she told us the rules and some other things. then we wALKED back stage and soon were in the promise land that is Loft 89 (as we walked onto the floor the go backstage there was just piles of confetti EVERYWHERE. so of course i grabbed a hand full and stuffed it in my 1989 Tour Dad Hat!).
I immediately went to the photo booth and motioned my brother to follow. We took some pics NBD and then I got a water and we sat down on the (iconic) Loft 89 couches. I got some pics of myself snapped on the couch and in front of the I C O N I C “Loft 89” neon sign and then we made our way back to the couch. I was a bit nervous, but I was quiet. I didn’t talk much but I was somewhat calm, i was just ready for Taylor to come. I passed the time by going over what I would say to Taylor, and also taking some BOMB selfies like any ordinary night! Okay so idk 10-15 minutes later we were told to put our phones away (that’s when we knew Taylor was about to come) so we did and then I got up off the couch so I could see her walk in. (WAIT pause I just wanna say I was pictured Loft 89 to be bigger but it was SO small. So cozy and so homey odmfodkakekc I love Taylor ok anyway). The lady in charge told us to cheer REALLY loudly and after a minute or so of cheering tAYLOR FINALLY WALKED IN. EVERYONE KIND OF CROWDED IN FRONT OF ME SO I DIDNT SEE HER AT FIRST BUT I SAW HER SHOES AND HER LEGS AND I WAS LIKE “OK GOODBYE SHES LITERALL RIGHT THERE” AND THEN SHE TOOK ANOTHER STEP IN AND I SAW HER FACE AND I JUST. I DIED. I COULDNT BELIEVE SHE WAS REAL???? (I STILL CANT TBH). Okay so there were about hmmm I wanna say about 7-10 groups total and so she started with the ppl near the entrance. This might sound creepy (I’m not I promise) but I was just like….. Watching her talk to each group and it was so….. Mesmerizing. You could just tell how involved she was in each conversation and that she truly cares and OAKDICJRKSJD I LOVE HER TO DEATH. Oh OH something I want to point out ok when she walked up to the group that was right before us (that had 2 small children) and she yelled “TINY CHILDREN!!!” And I just laughed ok sorry I just wanted to let you know it was so cute.
so beFORE I GET TO THE REALLY GOOD PART let me tell you about mama swift!! she walked in a about a minute or two after taylor did. eventually (before taylor did) she made her way over the me! she said it was good to see me again as i went in for a hug. and pretty much the only thing i could say to her was thank you. i just repeatedly said thank you and i love you. and i said “thank you i am so happy” and she said “aww, i’m so happy that you’re happy. i am so happy you are here” AHHHH!!!!!!! so yeah we talked for about 2 minutes and she left us after a pic and another hug. I LOVE HER SO MUCH. thank you mama swift for coming to find me!!!!
OKAY HERE COMES…. THE GOOD PART!!!!!! So. She left the group before us and came to me and my brother and she saw me and her face just lit up. She was literally the human embodiment of the :D emoji. AHHHHHH. AND I JUST WENT IN AND HUGGED HER I COULDNT BELUEVE IT WAS HAPPENING. I GAVE HER THE BIGGEST AND LONGEST HUG. A HUG 8 YEARS IN THE MAKING PRETTY MUCH. I was just. I was so in shock. I said “hi I’m anthony” and GET THIS. SHE SAID “I know!” and I was like aldkckdnskdkskd L"NO YOU DONT!“ and she was like YES!” AND I WAS LIKE “NOOOO” AND SHE WAS LIKE “YEAH!” AND I WENT IN FOR ANOTHER HUG BECAUSE I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT. She asked who was with me and I told her it was my brother and they hugged or something idk. OKAY AND THEN she just like looked at me after I hugged her and I said “you’re so tall!” (WHICH I DIDN’T MEAN TO SAY BC OBVIOUSLY SHE’S TALL I MEANT TO SAY “your heels are tall” i’m a screw up) and she said “yeah.. the heels add more but I’m already tall without them” and I was just like oh I know! and then i said “your heels ARE tall” ok i hate myself. anyway….. (idr which of these came first but all of what I’m gonna say next happened within the same period I JUST DONT RECALL THE ORDER IT WAS SAID) she then said “you’re so dedicated!” and I said “yeah, I’ve been a fan ever since I heard Our Song!” and my brother said something. Then I was thinking like ok let’s get to what i wANNA SAY so i said “I don’t know if you read my long post abo-” and before I could continue she said “about the accident? Yeah, I did.” AND I DIED SIDKCKRKSKDKRKFKD. She said she screenshotted it and sent it (to her mom I think) and for mama swift to come find me, and that she wanted to meet me. She then said something along the lines of, (OK REALLY do not quote me on this because I don’t exactly remember it word for word but it went something like) “what your went through was terrible. it’s just an awful thing to imagine.” you could tell that like… IDK bc obviously that is a touchy subject for me and i could tell that taylor was really considerate about it and truly did care. and she said “I’m glad you’ve gotten better and are okay now.” and then she kinda stopped herself and said “I assume you’re okay now?” which then lead me to explain my current life situation. I told her how the post I had made back in January. So since then I had left school started to see a therapist and really just took time to discover myself - OH MY GOD I’m about to get emo - and dURING THIS SHE JUST KEPT LOOKING ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYES. SHE DID NOT LOSE CONTACT ONCE. SHE WAS SO CONCERNED AND SO INTRIGUED BY WHAT I HAD TO SAY. I AM TRULY AMAZED. After she looked at me she looked relieved and told me she was happy i was okay now. And during that I think I hugged her 2 more times because.. Omg I just kept hugging her and telling her I love her bc I couldn’t believe she was real. I told her “I’m so happy” and she smiled at me and said “I’m so happy you’re happy” (probably one of the greatest thing I will EVER hear in my life) and she said she was proud of me (???!!!!) AND THEN I WENT IN FOR ANOTHER HUG. Hmmmm ok what else I said that we had come from LA to see her, and also that I was at MetLife and she was like “I know!” and then it just struck me again that shE READ MY POST(S) ON HERE LIKE SHE KNEW ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS!!!!!!! AODMFKRKSKFID. and then I said something about MetLife and then she said something about me having cool friends friends like “your group of friends are so cool”. And I said “yeah! Like Kylee and ally! You met them there!” and Taylor said “yeah!! You have a great squad. You guys are squad goals.” and then she turned to my brother and said it again “him and his friends are squad goals” LIKE OAIDJFLKAJDF. AND I WAS JUST LIKE OKAY SOFKCKRKSKFKCKRKD.. Then I believe she asked if I had anything she wanted me to sign so (obviously) I handed her the loft ticket and I asked “can you write ‘choose happiness’? It’s kind of my thing” i didn’t even get to finish the sentence and without hesitation or reply she started writing it. then she wrote “I LOVE YOU ANTHONY!!!” JUST LIKE THAT IN ALL CAPS!!!! NOT JUST THE I
So then we were gonna take the pic and she asked me what I wanted to do (cute pose, funny, etc) and I said “what do you recommend?” and she thought for a moment then she said “we should sit on the couch because this is a completely chill vibe.” and inside I was like OKAY TAYLOR SWIFT LET ME LIVE!!!!!! but I really said (sarcastically) “yeah. this is totally completely calm and casual. it’s whatever” and she smiled. SO WE SAT DOWN AND IMMEDIATELY SHE LIFTS HER LEGS UP AND PUTS THEM ACROSS MY LAP. I WAS SO IN SHOCK I WAS LIKE IS THIS REAL IS THIS REAL. AND THEN I WAS AFRAID TO REST MY ARMS ON HER LEGS BUT I DID IT BC I THOUGHT “ok she literally just laid her entire lower body on my lap taylor swift will be ok if my arms lean against her legs like we’re FRIENDS it’s cool it’s okay” AND OK THAT HAPPENED. THEN WE POSED AND SHE KINDA PUT HER ARM ON MY SHOULDERS BUT IT WAS KIND OF A REACH ALMOST AS IF SHE WAS PUSHING AGAINST ME/PUSHING ME AWAy. once it was taken she said “wait. can we take another picture? I feel like I was pushing you away. I don’t want that” AND AGAIN I WAS LIKE AOSMFKDKAKDKDKDKD i said “haha okay” ANYTHIN FOR U TAYLOR. So she repositioned her legs and this time grabbed my head and wrapped her arm around it and I put my arm like on her wrists and SNAP! PICTURE GOALS SUCCEEDED!!! she took her legs off of me and looked at me and said “body language is important” and i just laughed.
We got up and I hugged her again i said thank you a million times and said “I love you” and she said “I love you too buddy” I AM DEAD!!!!! -sidenote: after I got home, my brother said she kept calling me buddy which I WASNT AWARE OF because i was in some sort of TRANSE lmao but I did notice the last one and that just made me so happy because I’ve always half joked but half serious that i wanted her to call me Buddy. - Okay anyway and then (I think?) she again said she was proud of me. I said “you make me so happy!” and she kind of did a high pitched squeal and said “BUDDY” as SHE leaned into ME for another hug so I hugged her AGAIN (i got soooo omany hugs omg) like can we please just relax aodmckfoekfkfjfsjdkckfkr. and thus we went our separate ways. but wait! there’s more!
OKAY SO… WHEN SHE WAS WITH THE LAST GROUP THEY WALKED OVER TO THE COUCH TO TAKE THEIR PIC (where I had mine) and as she was walking away she was about to pass right by me. but sHE STOPPED. AND SHE STARTED PATTING AND RUBBING MY FUCKING HEAD LIKE I WAS HER ONE OF HER CATS (i’m her honorary 3rd cat tbh) AND SHE JUST GAVE ME THE CUTEST SMILE AND I JUST WAS THINKING IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING???? IT LASTED FOR A GOOD LIKE 7-10 SECONDS. JUST 7-10 SECONDS OF STRAIGHT HEAD PATTING. LIKE WTF???? AND SHE JUST GAVE ME THE GREATEST LOOK WITH HER SMILE AND HER EYES AND ok so I wasn’t sure if I was allowed to hug her again since my time was up but I wENT FOR IT ANYWAY I hesitated but I hugged her and she hugged me right back :) and ok this is dumb but while in the hug i was thinking (aside for “this is nice), “I don’t specifically remember her saying she loves me (I mean SHE DID I do remember now but at the time I didn’t AND I WAS STUPID AND EMO) so right after the hug I was like “I LOVE YOU!!” and she looked at me and said with the biggest smile on her face and joy in her voice “I love you too!” and some people went “awwwwww” and I just JUMPED IN EXCITEMENT. like taylor swift and i basically had a totally casual but meaningful best friend moment whilst everyone was watching, even though it felt like it was just me and her.
Then she left and I SCREAMED I love you one last time. The end. I am dead.
I am so happy I got to experience this and I am so happy I got to tell her about my life. And she knows how much I love her and how thankful I am for her in my life and for that experience. The fact that she knows about what I’ve been through in my life, and that she loves and supports me and CARES ABOUT ME is something I will never be able to fully express how I feel. I am forever thankful. I WILL SEE YOU FRIDAY THE 21ST OF AUGUST IN LA TAYLOR!!!! I’LL BE IN THE B STAGE PIT :D
FYI for anyone who wants to orignial of both pics here’s they are x & x ALSO I JUST WANT TO SAY A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HELPED REBLOG MY POST(S) THIS IS HONESTLY BECAUSE OF YOU THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE YOU TAYLOR BUDDY