"Please bless my dear wife.
Bless her to feel like a mother in her heart, in her soul, in her bones, in her mind, in her womb, and in the words that she speaks."
Oh, that man makes my heart just feel so big.
When we got married, we knew that getting pregnant would be a miracle and so we never stopped it from happening. That means I've listened to beautiful prayers like this for the last two years. And every single word of them has meant the world to me.
We had set July as our last month to try naturally before IVF. We have been hoping for a miracle.
But.....that miracle won't be happening.
Last night I had a few tears. It was my turn to pray. I started. I choked. Danny cozied me tight. And then and there I decided to focus on gratitude. I had gratitude for each other. Gratitude for our lives. Gratitude for all of our beautiful experiences - each and every one. Gratitude for our families. Gratitude for our sweet marriage. Gratitude for all the joy that we get to experience - so much of it! Gratitude for the ability to love and to be nourished by it. Gratitude for all the experiences that we have ahead. Gratitude for the courage and bravery I will be trying to develop as we face the next steps. Gratitude for all the women and men that have gone before us. Gratitude for all of you wonderful people and the beautiful experience it has been to connect with you here.
I was smiling before our prayer was done. My heart was full. Life felt so good. I am telling you, gratitude is like a drug. It's amazing to me how quickly it lifts any weight that I feel. It cultivates something so real and deep, even when the feeling of joy or beauty could have been non-existent moments before. Does this work for you, too? Next time you're feeling blue, try it!
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I love you all. Thank you for being in our lives. Thank you for your own lives and journeys and for all the wisdom and love that you share back with us.
AND - Thank you for helping to share the positive message of this blog with so many! We hear from dozens of your friends and family who are now new readers and have said the blog is helping them so much. We're amazed every day. I know this stuff I write about has all helped me....but writing it out & trying to be a tech person (when I couldn't be further from it) is another story. So this really is a miracle that people's lives, marriages, motherhoods, & families are somehow being reached and uplifted. Thank you for all you've done to help us as we bust our tails on the other end. Want to do something more to help? We now have a Facebook fan page! We'd love for you to "like" us, if that suits your fancy. :) :) :) :) Thanks a million in advance for helping us spread some positive words & supporting this effort.
[Also, I just posted more photos from Brazil on our Facebook page. Enjoy!]
P.S. Thanks to beautifullymodest.com for providing the red dress for the Manaus Temple dedication!
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